Wednesday, May 23, 2012 (Ending)

I almost abandon myself to despair. I know, THIS IS THE ENDING. This blogger will end all my dreams until the next beam of hope- summer vacation. I have spent too much time and wasted too much energy. I ain't sure whether the dramas are worth for me. I feel desperate, but I can't explain my feelings. I want to cry, but I don't know why should I cry. I can't even explain why do I always want to cry after watching dramas, though they are comedies. Dramas aren't novels. The characters don't always stay together happily since costume dramas are mostly based on history. History is cruel. It is the truth, instead of fantasy. I can merely listen to the main themes of the dramas and remember the plot while tears burst out from my eyes. I blame myself that I seem all-possessed with the characters in dramas. I cry with the characters whenever they encounter difficulties. I curse the bad guys and hope the main characters a bright future. I always take a walk in my community, sit at a corner, and cry secretly for the characters. However, THIS IS THE ENDING. I will go back to normal and focus in school, instead of worrying about the memorial dramas.