Sunday, May 26, 2012 (PASMUN Reflection)

Frankly, PASMUN is the best conference that I participated well. I am glad to represent France, which is Europe's second largest economy and the creditor to PIIGS. Representing a powerful nation allows me to have a bossy attitude to command people and demand my money back. I regret that I didn't prepare an interesting opening speech since I can create a relaxed atmosphere and I hope to make people laugh. I am capable of main-submitting, but unfortunately, I am not as popular as our main-submitter. However, I still do my best to participate in the conference. I was quite mad and annoyed since I raised my placard a thousand times, but the chair seemed to ignore me and didn't call on me. It was technically not the chair's fault since I should raise my placard higher. But I was frustrated when the chair didn't call on me while I was well-prepared for a speech. I was prepared to accuse the resolution affect national sovereignty, but I didn't have a chance to express my feelings. I loved my bossy attitude since it reminded me Grace in The Dark Divine, though it was quite harsh. My high-pitched voice was a gift for bargaining, commands, and accusations. I was more confident in PASMUN than in TAIMUN. I was quite surprised since I didn't know that I had the courage to confront my schoolmates. My speech was successful since it shocked member states since they didn't know that I had a different side than my seemingly sweet voice. I felt honored to be praised by the chair and other member states for my tactic. Confidence is what people need to stand up for themselves. I enjoyed to become a target when other delegates specifically accused my country since I felt that I was an important character in the conference. I didn't want to feel irrelevant with the conference because it simply wasted my time. I would definitely not sit at the corner and remain quiet since it would be boring. The first time I stood on the podium, I was trembling. The second time I stood on the podium, I was afraid that I might become speechless. The third time I stood on the podium, I was cheerful to accept challenges and learn to make up B.S. I improved. "I come, I see, I conquer." I enjoy practicing my debating skills with other delegates. I felt proud to become a delegate. I learn and grow in MUN conferences and gain the leadership, confidence, and courage through lessons.