Wednesday, May 16, 2012 (Childhood)

Of all the paranormal hot guys, I suddenly realize why do I love Daniel that much. Warning: NOT Daniel in Fallen. In fact, Daniel seems closer to me than Patch. Duh!? Why am I close to a fallen angel? I don't have a Nephilim blood vessel. Daniel represents a sincere, mischievous childhood friend. A childhood friend whom people easily fall in love with. I hate the truth, but I can't elude it nor lie to it. Because Daniel reminds me a childhood friend. Because I miss my friend and long to see my friend again. I realize it when I see how Grace and Daniel share the same childhood memories. They climb trees and draw gorgeous pictures. I understand that I want to have a friend like Daniel. I want to spend my childhood with a sincere friend. The truth is-- I miss my friend so much that my heart aches. I'm jealous of Grace since she can have a childhood with such a friend. I have a childhood with my friend but my friend leaves and never comes back. Why is the world in novel so different from reality? When can I actually share the realization from The Dark Divine with my friend? Will I ever tell the truth to my friend?