Saturday, June 15, 2012 (Dear Jace)

JACE WAYLAND~!!!!!! The most beautiful, gorgeous, and handsome name ever!!!! Yes, I'm in love with Jace! Jace Jace Jace. After finishing the Dark Divine Trilogy, I carry on my romantic dream-- and expect to read something more agitating--The Mortal Instruments. Frankly, Cassandra Clare is a creative, talented, and fabulous author. She created her own world-- the Shadow World. Jace is a smoky hot, yet freaking arrogant, and of course, narcissistic Shadowhunter. He is always over-confident and claims that he's stunningly attractive. Honestly, he is stunningly attractive. However, Jace makes me heartbreaking. He always uses his I-don't-care attitude and arrogant confidence to cover his trauma, bruises, and pain. He has a grinning smile which stays plastered on his expressionless face. How can girls not love this emotional, sensitive, hot boy? Bearing a miserable childhood with a morbid dad, Jace always hides his trauma. 
"The boy never cried again, and he never forgot what he'd learned: that to love is to destroy, and that to be loved is to be the one destroyed" is indeed a summary of Jace's childhood.

Wednesday, June 13, 2012 (The Savage Grace Reflection)

It's quite ironic that I miss my blog post after the school ends. Though I'm oblivious of my daily journals, I still enjoy expressing my overwhelming emotions whenever I finish reading novels. I love the Dark Divine Trilogy freaking much since Daniel and Grace are sooooo sweet. Of course, Daniel is hot. Hehe. Grace has violet eyes (so beautiful) while Daniel has mud-pie eyes with golden-- nearly white hair. (Girls, let's scream) I officially finish the last book of The Dark Divine Trilogy. Even the title, the Savage Grace, makes my heart ache. "In the end, this is my savage grace." Yeah, Grace does have the savage grace. Her small hands can easily heal trauma yet kill people in the meanwhile. However, she is able to free the Urbat souls. She's the Divine One. The Savage Grace is well-written. It is fast-paced, surprising, and of course, heartbreaking. I was worried that Ms. Bree Despain would spend freaking amounts of time to wait until Daniel turns back to human form. Thanks that it happens in 50 pages or not my heart will be ripped open. I'm so delighted to see how Grace grows up and changes. She was stupid enough in the Lost Saint that she didn't trust Daniel and was over-confident. Anyhow, she becomes mature and deals with her anger in the Savage Grace. The Savage Grace was full of surprises. And sorrow. The bombing amazes readers when I understand that Caleb always had a fail-safe plan. Sirhan......sigh......yeah. He pretty much became a poker face. Jude......I wondered if it was April who stabbed the heart, he might be cured and perfected, such as Daniel. Though Jude was lost, he deserved to have a ............. Poor April. And Talbot. The most amazing character......doomed by love. He loved Grace, yet Grace couldn't return him. "I'll always choose Daniel." This sentence changed him-- forever. I didn't hate Talbot in the Lost Saint, yet I sympathize him in the Savage Grace. I wonder what will happen if Talbot was truly Grace's Nemesis. I don't understand how I feel about Talbot. Too complicated. He's a sunshine boy, yet he seems so faraway from me. I don't recognize him anymore. Although I'm surely Team Daniel, I still want Talbot to be forgiven. If Grace is willing to forgive Talbot and befriend with him, the ending will change certainly. Talbot deserves a second chance. just like the lost boys and Jude. He loves Grace so much that he becomes........ I thought there was more to the ending since Talbot........sigh. Anyway, I love how Daniel and Grace are connected. They are destined to become alpha mates. Hehe. Their love is solid throughout the Savage Grace. They believe in each other. They no longer hide any secrets since secrets create barriers. Grace sacrifices Trenton for Daniel. Daniel proposes to Grace. Perfect. Frankly, I used to dislike Katie. I thought that she was breaking Grace from Daniel. However, she was actually a sweet girl...hehe....with Slade. Perfect. Of course, I absolutely have to introduce the five cutie wolf guards. The lost boys--- Brent, Zach, Ryan, Marcos, and Slade. They are freaking cute. I'm so jealous that I don't have the cute wolf guards. Brent, definitely a brilliant bomb designer......yeah--I miss him. I love how the lost boys (according to Grace) entertain the readers with their amusing arguments, creativity, and loyalty. They are a family with Grace and Daniel. They aren't soldiers like how Caleb used to train them. They are fantastic-- they bring me so much fun. They are mischievous yet rarely make trouble, reminding me my dear friends. Another sigh. The lost boys are AWESOME. They decorate the novel with sincerity. 

The funniest quote ever: "Okay," I said. "I think Katie's had enough partying for one night." I motioned for Slade to pick her up. "Take care of her, will you?" I asked him.

Slade looked down at Katie, still clinging to his legs, and then back at me. A stricken look crossed his face. He leaned toward me and whispered, "Um. To be clear, are you asking me to kill her and dump her body?"

OMG!!! Slade, you're sooooo cute. Take care of Katie seriously means protect her safety, instead of killing Katie. (That's atrocious Caleb, not kindhearted Grace)

The Savage Grace further focuses on family love. Grace's mom is no longer perfect, but she is always her mom. Grace is able to heal her dad---not hurt him--with her power once she learns to forgive. Jude, eventually returns. Yeah, not fake--really returns. Jude learns that Grace and Daniel forgive him and he has a family who always loves him. Hugh sigh. It just makes the ending more painful to me. I love the family scene the most. Breakfast-for-dinner party. Along with the lost boys, they are a family. Hey, Charity and Ryan, I didn't forget you guys. hehe. I also love how Grace sneaks from her bedroom and secretly visits Daniel in the basement. Yeah, Daniel. I know that both of you don't sleep well because....only one floor separates you guys. It's merely a short distance, right? Huge smile. Grace and Daniel are always freaking sweet under the walnut tree. (I should plant a walnut tree in my yard) Daniel, the cutest guy ever, smiles deviously in the Savage Grace!!!! I love Daniel's wry, devious smile so much. He's so much better than Edward. He's absolutely perfect!!! The Hound of Heaven!!!! Unfortunately, every story has its ending. And this is the end of the Dark Divine Trilogy. I still think that there's so much more possibility in Daniel and Grace's future. Ms. Despain should write a 4th book explaining what happens. I love how Talbot said to Grace: "I understand. You're Daniel's and Daniel is yours." It's so true. Grace and Daniel belong to each other. So I will never snatch Daniel away (Well, that sounds mean) I can become a forever fan of Team Daniel. The Dark Divine Trilogy is well-written in general, and has a heartbroken ending. There are so many people who sacrifice their precious lives in order to save the ones they love. There are surprises which shock the readers. There is always grief in people's memories. However, people have to learn to live in the moment and keep going on. Life keeps going on no matter what happens. 

I love this quote: “Your life is a lot bigger than this moment. You need to remember that you can't let the trials you face right now derail your course forever.” 

Yes, it's the truth. I might be defeated, but I'll always stand up for myself. I might wail over loses, but I'll wipe my tears away and find a way to fly. We all have people who still love us so much, so we can't make them worry. There are times we lost, but we have anchors, which support and encourage us. Yes, I will. I will become stronger just as Grace improves through the story. I will become perfected just as Daniel. We all have superpowers deep in our heart. Love and forgive are remedy for hatred. Unless we learn to love, we'll never forgive people. The Savage Grace is definitely inspiring, though I wonder whether there is more for the ending. However, for sure, I learn that "There is no love without forgiveness, and there is no forgiveness without love".

Monday, June 11, 2012 (Graduation Dinner)

903 rocks!!!! I'm so excited about my graduation dinner with 903, even though I have to sacrifice my precious basketball end-of-year celebration (including a prize of 2000 for the winners of basketball game) Thanks to my best friend Nancy, I get to participate all the activities ever since I transferred. I can't understand why-- a year in Shin Shing seems to have a stronger connection than that of PAS. We always laugh heartily, wail painfully, and smile with a smirk as a class. A group of friends. Not as a group of seemingly strangers. I can take pictures with guys easily. I don't have to be nervous since we are all friends. However, I seem to be apathy against the male classmates in PAS. Continuing.......

Sunday, June 10, 2012 (The Lost Saint Reflection)

WARNING. The author is overemotional right now so she isn't responsible for whatever she blurts. Anger surges, yet tears burst out uncontrollably. As everyone knows, I love the Dark Divine so much since the romance touches me deeply. The Lost Saint is the second book of the Dark Divine. But, why? Why the hell do all the cute guys in the second books of whatever series always disappear? I MISS DANIEL. I miss Daniel's wry, devious smile and of course, himself. Where on Earth is Daniel? I have an urge to highlight Daniel's name on my kindle and count how many times he appear. Where is the devious Daniel who makes me laugh heartily yet wail with sympathy. I seriously miss the Daniel in the Dark Divine. However, though the plot is quite predictable, I am surprised by the climax. All I can chant is: Daniel. Mud-pie Eyes. White Wolf. True Alpha. Love triangle is inevitable in every series. Frankly, I don't hate the minor male character that much. (At least I didn't skip through pages like that of Twilight where Jacob exist) Talbot is warm, cute, and amiable. However, Daniel is way more sweeter. Although I'm crazy about Daniel, I will definitely not take away him from Grace because she will be heartbroken. Compares to Romeo and Juliet, I feel that Grace-and-Daniel connect to the larger world better. Romeo simply loves Juliet's gorgeous appearance while Daniel loves how Grace changes him. I have to end in conclusion since I am now jumping and dancing and screaming. Anyways, I just can't wait to read the Savage Grace right now. Hehe. It's in my kindle (:

Tuesday, June 5, 2012 (KINDLE!!!)

Fortunately, I can eventually embrace my kindle! Whoohoo! Last week, our kindles stuck at Taiwanese customs since the government suspects that we buy kindles for business purpose. Come on, there are merely eight kindles. They are for SCHOOL use. Students buy kindles in order to improve English. Thanks to Eve's dad, he drove to Taipei and explained to the customs. I appreciate his efforts since he is devoted to the 7th graders. He didn't even charge us the expensive Amazon shipping fees nor the gasoline he drove to Taipei. We only have to pay the price of Kindles and leather covers. How generous is Eve's family! Kindle deserves a Noble Prize since it's the best 20-century invention. It's light, convenient, and has 3G wireless. I can't wait to shout "Here is my Kindle!" and sing and dance. However, since I was having MUN class, I have to shut up and learn to behave well. Anyways, my passion for kindle grows stronger. (Who cares about finals? Just joking~) In conclusion, I only have three words: I LOVE KINDLE!

Sunday, June 3, 2012 (Schedule & Friends)

A new schedule indicates that students can select their courses. I'm extremely excited to select AP Biology since it is challenging. Since I take Biology this year, I'll take Chemistry next year. However, I didn't realize that my decision would affect fellow 8th graders that much. I'm quite surprised that most of them are willing to take Chemistry because of me (according to a 8th grader's explanation) I'm actually elated that we will again be in the same class. I sincerely look forward to cooperate with them. I feel touched since people who I recognize won't select a course because of me. I won't either. I feel a strong relationship and can hardly believe that I am such influential. Furthermore, my Spanish classmates strongly encourage me to select Spanish III. However, I am confused since International Relations is at the same period. I love my Spanish teacher so much, but I also appreciate MUN Conferences. It's a hard decision for me since I didn't wanna give up my Spanish progress. I love my Spanish classmates, too. I will have to ponder and make a choice that I won't regret.

Thursday, May 31, 2012 (Spanish Feast)

We Spanish students have a afterschool celebration today. Unfortunately, I have to face my most miserable-ever Biology final. (It's about 250 pages within 10 chapters) Frankly, I'm most afraid of Bio final since it's freaking complicated. To us students, we have to understand vast topics, analyze data, further explore human systems and animal systems, and acquaint the functions. Human systems are extremely hard since we have nervous system, skeletal system, endocrine system, excretory system, digestive system, circulatory system, immune system, and etc. However, I did enjoy my beautiful Spanish celebration. We made paella (seafood and meat), tacos, tortillas de patatas, and salsa. Ms. Padachie voluntarily supported us beginners along with Ms. Ruperez's hardworking manners and great cooking skills. I loved the Spanish feast very much and appreciate the teachers' efforts. They made my day and gave me a wonderful memory for Spanish II.

Wednesday, May 30, 2012 (Schedule)

Yay~I receive our high school schedule for next year. I'm extremely excited to select my courses since I become a sophomore and get to choose AP courses. Unfortunately, my courses conflict against each other and I am forced to give up AP Micro & Macroeconomics. I have problems with my computer-science credits since digital publication conflicts against AP Biology. I have to take AP Biology since I will forget Biology if I skip a year. Furthermore, I would like to take International Relations, yet Spanish III is at the same period. I can't give up Spanish since I have no chance to remember Spanish. I am confused for selecting the courses and have a hard time for the schedule. I hope that Ms. Pamela will provide me a solution since she recommends me to take International Relations. (if I'm going to become a businesswoman) Anyways, I'm still excited about getting the new schedule since it means that I'm about to face a whole-new semester and challenge.

Tuesday, May 29, 2012 (Paella)

Our Spanish teacher truly concerns about students. She understands that students usually look forward to summer vacation at the end of school semester. Unfortunately, we all have to face a huge challenge-- FINAL. Therefore, she decides to give us a cooking final (similar to a feast/ celebration) to celebrate the end of school year. I love her idea and we are assigned to different jobs. I will make tortillas de patatas, which are traditional Spanish food. In class, we learn to cook Spanish rice, known as paella. I'm satisfied with our final product. With the help of Ms. Ruperez, we students learn new skills. She's adept in cooking and is willing to teach us to cook. Paella attracts great amounts of non-Spanish students, who would like to taste a bit. Unfortunately, they aren't Spanish students. (Well, here's the moment when Spanish students can become proud of themselves and mock: You didn't have Spanish! And make a grimace. That's actually mean. hehe) Paella is indeed time-consuming since the rice absorbs all the "essence" and nutrients in pawns, clams, squids, chicken, onions, and green peppers. During summer vacation, I might as well practice at home and bring the skills when I go abroad.

Monday, May 28, 2012 (Vietnam War Video Project)

My friends and I have to film a talk show for Vietnam War Video Project. I'm the host and I'll invite American President Lyndon B. Johnson and Vietnamese great leader, Ho Chi Minh. I'll ask them crucial questions about Vietnam War and ask them to explain their tactics and actions. I'm an optimistic host and hope that LBJ and Ho Chi Minh can have a fruitful debate. Yeah, FRUITFUL debate. A debate full of fresh fruits. Haha. Cold joke from Mr. Wahlgren. I start to have a sarcastic yet humorous tone, right? Thanks to Mr. Wahlgren, he changes my personality. Anyways, LBJ and Ho Chi Minh are magnificent guests and will remain a peaceful, nonviolent relationship. I enjoy the filming pretty much since I'm a clumsy, high-pitched, and smart host, right? Actually, I enjoy the NGs the most. We purposely film few NGs and will put inside the video to make our audience laugh. What a huge sacrifice!

Sunday, May 26, 2012 (PASMUN Reflection)

Frankly, PASMUN is the best conference that I participated well. I am glad to represent France, which is Europe's second largest economy and the creditor to PIIGS. Representing a powerful nation allows me to have a bossy attitude to command people and demand my money back. I regret that I didn't prepare an interesting opening speech since I can create a relaxed atmosphere and I hope to make people laugh. I am capable of main-submitting, but unfortunately, I am not as popular as our main-submitter. However, I still do my best to participate in the conference. I was quite mad and annoyed since I raised my placard a thousand times, but the chair seemed to ignore me and didn't call on me. It was technically not the chair's fault since I should raise my placard higher. But I was frustrated when the chair didn't call on me while I was well-prepared for a speech. I was prepared to accuse the resolution affect national sovereignty, but I didn't have a chance to express my feelings. I loved my bossy attitude since it reminded me Grace in The Dark Divine, though it was quite harsh. My high-pitched voice was a gift for bargaining, commands, and accusations. I was more confident in PASMUN than in TAIMUN. I was quite surprised since I didn't know that I had the courage to confront my schoolmates. My speech was successful since it shocked member states since they didn't know that I had a different side than my seemingly sweet voice. I felt honored to be praised by the chair and other member states for my tactic. Confidence is what people need to stand up for themselves. I enjoyed to become a target when other delegates specifically accused my country since I felt that I was an important character in the conference. I didn't want to feel irrelevant with the conference because it simply wasted my time. I would definitely not sit at the corner and remain quiet since it would be boring. The first time I stood on the podium, I was trembling. The second time I stood on the podium, I was afraid that I might become speechless. The third time I stood on the podium, I was cheerful to accept challenges and learn to make up B.S. I improved. "I come, I see, I conquer." I enjoy practicing my debating skills with other delegates. I felt proud to become a delegate. I learn and grow in MUN conferences and gain the leadership, confidence, and courage through lessons.

Thursday, May 24, 2012 (PASMUN)

U.S., U.K., France, Germany, Norway, Russia, and Belgium cooperate and create a great resolution during lobbying. During approval panel, we freshmen left and enjoyed having our feast-- ice cream with quesadilla. I was quite disappointed since people who weren't in MUN didn't consider our feelings when we saw empty boxes of ice cream. Though I fully aware of "first come first serve", I was quite despaired when I realized that there was no more ice cream. Although I felt proud of myself to be a delegate in PASMUN, I wasn't happy to discover that they didn't leave ice cream for us. Actually, they did. Out of 6 boxes of ice cream, I got one spoon. As for quesadilla, it was extremely tasty and I was surprised that it can be made within microwave, instead of the oven. I enjoy my temporary rest outside the noisy conference room. I felt bad for the admin staff since I didn't leave the quesadillas for them. I should bring something delicious to serve them since they suffered in boredom. Anyways, lobbying is both bored yet interesting. My friends and I played truth or dare during approval panel. (Of course after our reso was approved) I was glad that our group was amazingly strong and I hoped to have a fruitful debate with all delegates.

Wednesday, May 23, 2012 (Ending)

I almost abandon myself to despair. I know, THIS IS THE ENDING. This blogger will end all my dreams until the next beam of hope- summer vacation. I have spent too much time and wasted too much energy. I ain't sure whether the dramas are worth for me. I feel desperate, but I can't explain my feelings. I want to cry, but I don't know why should I cry. I can't even explain why do I always want to cry after watching dramas, though they are comedies. Dramas aren't novels. The characters don't always stay together happily since costume dramas are mostly based on history. History is cruel. It is the truth, instead of fantasy. I can merely listen to the main themes of the dramas and remember the plot while tears burst out from my eyes. I blame myself that I seem all-possessed with the characters in dramas. I cry with the characters whenever they encounter difficulties. I curse the bad guys and hope the main characters a bright future. I always take a walk in my community, sit at a corner, and cry secretly for the characters. However, THIS IS THE ENDING. I will go back to normal and focus in school, instead of worrying about the memorial dramas.

Tuesday, May 22, 2012 (Spanish!!!)

Unfortunately, I forgot to bring my Spanish textbook since I was disorganized. I confessed yet the teacher wasn't mad since we didn't need our textbooks today. Why? Because we are cooking Spanish dishes. She taught us Spanish recipes, though I could hardly understand the meaning. I try to analyze the recipes with my poor Spanish vocabularies. We chopped and cooked bacon, mushrooms, and added white wine. The wine strengthens the flavour of the mushrooms. I personally dislike mushrooms, yet the delicious garlic mushrooms attracted my appetite. I love how our teammates cooperate together, though some mischievous kids kept volunteering me to do the dishes. Come on! I'm NOT that obedient. However, we didn't have time to make backed sugar apple, which is a pity. The teacher promised that she would invite us to eat after finish baking in Spanish III. Spanish is always so eventful since the teacher truly connects the hard, dull content with larger world and makes the class full of laughters.

Monday, May 21, 2012 (Indeed a FRIEND)

People tend to remember the goods of the past, but forget to treasure now, the very moment presents in front of us. I wonder why, but can't deny that PAST is always better than PRESENT. My friends in junior high school are so much more sincere and trustworthy. They connect me whenever they have activities, such as New Year Celebration and Christmas. However, among all the friends, it is Nancy who treats me as a real and forever friend. I am seriously thankful to her. Without her, I won't enjoy every activity when I went back to Shin Shing. I clearly understand that it's her who gives me happiness. It's her who makes me laugh and brings me a bright future in the darkest nights preparing the tests. My parents warn me not to make bad friends in PAS since parts of the students are here to play and enjoy their lives. They don't take academic works seriously. They are merely affluent. I take the warning cautiously. I wonder that if I leave PAS, can friends still maintain the friendship forever? People don't have strong relationships in PAS. Anyways, I can't wait to join the graduation party with my friends on June 11.

Sunday, May 20, 2012 (Pleasure)

Dopamine stimulates other neurons and produces pleasure, which makes people elated. I derive pleasure from novels, mangas, TV shows, and games. However, after gaining pleasure, I often feel depressed due to homework, tests, and guilt for accomplishing nothing. But I always gain pleasure by reading novels with less guilt. Romance, of course, is the most inspiring and attractive element of a novel. Why do I love the romance in the Dark Divine more, rather than Hush, Hush? Because it's more rational for readers. (though I understand that love isn't supposed to be rational) Patch is too hot for Nora and I don't get why does he love her? I have to first emphasize that I am not jealous. It's just irrational. However, I can truly understand why Daniel love Grace. He lover her because she was unbelievably caring, courageable, yet bossy in childhood. She became amazingly beautiful and strong teen. Grace loves Daniel since he was her crush. Their romance is so much more rational in real world.

Thursday, May 17, 2012 (Guilty)

The worst feeling in the world is guilty. People feel bad and are blamed by their conscience. Unfortunately, after screwing up my April-27-to-29 weekend, I feel guilt and can hardly look into my parents' eyes. I can barely stare at them blankly without actually admitting what I have done. I have never read novels in such a fast speed. I can't even believe that I read novels until 12 o'clock and wake up at 6 o'clock in order to finish my novels. However, I can't stop reading. I finish the HEX HALL series and Divergent. Insurgent will publish recently and I will download it soon. It was quite amazing that the weather was unstable when I was reading Hex Hall. I felt that I had the witch power to control the weather. It's fascinating to imagine that I do have supernatural power and can attend special boarding school which trains Prodigium. Humans are indeed jealous of Prodigiums. Haha. Anyways, Hex Hall does make me remember my love for witches and demons.

Wednesday, May 16, 2012 (Childhood)

Of all the paranormal hot guys, I suddenly realize why do I love Daniel that much. Warning: NOT Daniel in Fallen. In fact, Daniel seems closer to me than Patch. Duh!? Why am I close to a fallen angel? I don't have a Nephilim blood vessel. Daniel represents a sincere, mischievous childhood friend. A childhood friend whom people easily fall in love with. I hate the truth, but I can't elude it nor lie to it. Because Daniel reminds me a childhood friend. Because I miss my friend and long to see my friend again. I realize it when I see how Grace and Daniel share the same childhood memories. They climb trees and draw gorgeous pictures. I understand that I want to have a friend like Daniel. I want to spend my childhood with a sincere friend. The truth is-- I miss my friend so much that my heart aches. I'm jealous of Grace since she can have a childhood with such a friend. I have a childhood with my friend but my friend leaves and never comes back. Why is the world in novel so different from reality? When can I actually share the realization from The Dark Divine with my friend? Will I ever tell the truth to my friend?

Tuesday, May 15, 2012 (The Dark Divine)

Rereading The Dark Divine seems a perfect way when you're perplexed by an impossible MUN resolution. I sigh. I choke. I wail. I remember how and why do I love romance. People intend to forget things because they miss them so much. It's ironic, but it's indeed the truth. People forget things since they don't want to remember how important things disappear. That's how Grace and Daniel grasp my heart. People try to throw the beautiful memories away when the memories become a taboo. However, it's painful to hide the beautiful memories deep in our heart just because we don't want to remember them. That's how I fall in love with Daniel. Unlike typical bad boys with supernatural power, Daniel seems more fragile. He is merely a poor child who lacks love. He can't find where he belongs to. He doesn't have a beloved family, which influences his life. I feel heartbroken when I understand his family background, but I still love his evil grin. If there is a Daniel in the world, I will definitely take good care of him.

Thursday, May 14, 2012 (Angel & Demon)

Angels are fascinating, and demons are mysterious. I anticipate romance between angels and demons because they are destined to be enemies. How the lovers are going to surmount the obstacles is always the most attractive point. I love how the lovers face difficulties, but go through the barriers and defeat the enemies through time. Angels and demons often have contradictory backgrounds and friends. They have to face the challenges and overcome all the difficulties. They need to have faith in each other and are willing to sacrifice not only their lives, but their souls and memories. Angel and demon stories lure me so much that I am willing to read ALL of them and compare the differences. The authors usually create the ancient history, such as the results of the War of Heaven, which becomes an important background that affects the plot. I would like to create my own characters along with an unique background and publish my book in the future. I once dreamt to become an author IF the publishers appreciate my writing, story, and imagination.

Sunday, May 13, 2012 (Always NOVELS!)

I am always dedicated to reading novels with passion. I can hardly control myself because after 1 month, I will embrace the bright future with NOVELS. Unlimited reading, unlimited laughing, and unlimited crying. I can express my emotions with the characters and enjoy our journey. I wonder who "invent" paranormal romance and that person deserve a Nobel Prize. I feel sorry for the publishers because they have to combat against free pdf download and e-books, in which they can hardly earn money. When I was searching novels, I felt extremely depressed that I didn't have a U.S. address or CA address. Goodreads gives out copies of novels if people fill in their addresses. I would like to win copies of novels, but I don't have a U.S. nor CA address. I was almost heart-broken when I thought that I might be lucky enough to become a winner. (Wailing......) My beautiful novels left me behind and I couldn't chase them back. Sigh. Anyways, I am about to welcome my splendid summer vacation along with my favorite angel novels.

Thursday, May 10, 2012 (Angel)

Ultimately, I know my favorite topic of romance-fantasy--ANGEL. No matter fallen angels, archangels, nephilims, and whatever angels, I am obsessed with ANGELS. Partially it's because of my name. Hehe, just joking. I love angels because they seem heavenly and they have a mysterious background-- Lucifer and the war in heaven. Fallen angels always have the dark yet attractive characteristics. (Directly points at Patch) I'm recently comparing angel novels, such as the Daughter of Smoke and Bone; Angelfall; Dark Kiss; Halos; Unearthly, etc. Since angels often have supernatural power, such as feeling the thoughts, mind-tricking, they are responsible for heavenly missions. They are able to enter the human world and achieve their goals, but they usually fall in love with mankind. How sweet angels are! When love blossoms, angels have to protect their lovers from dangers and defeat all the possible threatening enemies. They might have to betray their friends, homeland, and blah blah blah in order to protect the true love. However, love might be shattered by danger. Thus, the angels have to try their best and sacrifice themselves, which often gain the sympathy from readers, such as ME.

Wednesday, May 9, 2012 (Freaking Excited)

I'm overwhelmed by excitement and happiness because my lovely books arrived. Technically, my mom paid the money and I received my lovely novels. I can hardly believe that such thick books have such cheap prices. It's seriously an awesome deal. However, the only "defect" is that my book is folded. I am quite annoyed by the defect. I would like to protest against the bookland for not protecting my lovely novels. I have recently decided to order books from book depository, but I'm indeed worrying about all the credit card stuff. Sigh........  I wonder whether I can get my parents' permission since I have already bought so many books. In MUN, the teacher shared a short TED video which emphasizes that using money on other people gives you happiness. However, for me, buying books for myself is an exception.  I make myself happier by buying books and reading books and dreaming about my favorite characters. If I can go to an American library in the future, I will be screaming and jumping and grinning and never-leaving.

Tuesday, May, 8, 2012 (MUN Resolution)

I should have finished my MUN Resolution few weeks ago. Unfortunately, I didn't. I was keep distracting by awesome novels and book information. Why? Because I couldn't provide any practical solutions. Child labor is a hard issue because the real problem is poverty. Austerity for economic crisis is even more difficult because civilians will definitely protest against the government. I personally agree with my dad that the Europeans nations have enjoyed too much resources so that's why they are facing the predicament. If I could possibly solve the economic crisis, the UN should just employ me. It's a complicated issue since the currency and the world are changing at every moment. Solving economic crisis is extremely hard and I seriously hope that I can provide a great resolution. I haven't decided which issue to focus on during the conference, but I'll do my best in both resolutions. I hope that I can solve the economic crisis successfully.

Monday, May 7, 2012 (Behavior)

I strongly agree that I misbehave myself in the weekends. I keep researching novels information, instead of finishing my homework earlier. Thus, I suffered on Sunday night since I have a pile of homework and projects. Sigh....... I can't stand that I can't control my behaviors, though researching alleviates the pain of not reading novels. I am obsessed in reading since I can find myself in the characters. They are similar to my reflection, my will power, and symbolize my possibility. I enjoy reading novels, but I can't stand to wait till summer vacations. However, I have to finish MUN resolutions, prepare for the spring fair, and perform well in the MUN Conference. Too many jobs, but I don't have enough time. Recently, I love buying novels with gorgeous book covers. I judge the value for me to buy by the beauty of book covers. I hope to "collect" a series of beautiful book covers so that I won't feel guilty for wasting money on books because their covers are valuable. It's a weird standard, but that is me. Angela, a person who is abnormal, is NOT going to be normal.

Sunday, May 5, 2012 (Guess What!?)

Guess What!? Guess What!? Guess What!? I'm freaking excited right now! Though I know that "freaking" isn't a good word, I can hardly control my tone anyways. When I was skimming through 2010 Best Yong Adult Books last year, I discovered a valuable book with a wrong price. City of Ashes. 70 percent off!? Too cheap. I decided to order it later since the cheap price is due next month and I hoped to order great amounts of books once. Unfortunately, I missed the chance. The book website changed the price. I was quite sorrowful. Today, I make the RIGHT CHOICE. I order a book right away since it's freaking cheap! I  have longed for this book. It's PARANORMALCY! Though I know that my friend has the book, I hope to buy one for myself because I love the book cover. The book cover is worth for me to preserve. It's 70 percent off! And guess what? It's HARDCOVER. I can hardly believe that I can buy such a cheap book with HARDCOVER. WAHAHA! I'm extremely pleasant about the price. And it's the last book when I am about to buy it. Thanks God that I order the book at the right time.

Thursday, May 3, 2012 (Novels)

I can hardly control my enthusiasm toward reading novels recently. I am always extremely excited about "discovering" a new novel. My friends and I are willing to lend novels to each other. Though I don't buy great amounts of novels, I have abundant pdf and ebooks. Although reading on the computer does hurt my eyes, in order to read my favorite novels, I have to sacrifice my eyes. However, I will ALWAYS protect my eyes, alright? Anyways, reading does give me a tons of fun. I immerse in the wonderland with fallen angels, fairies, werewolves, vampires, and shadowhunters. I incite my courage by learning from the heroines. I find crushes in almost every YA novel. I fight against the devils, monsters, and whatsoever with the characters. Most of all, I learn from their journey, their experience, and their lives. I learn from their lessons and understand myself better. I am always touched by the true love and sacrifices make by the characters. I wonder whether I have a chance to become the main character in the novel. But I know that I'm the main character in my own life. I control my destiny.

Wednesday, May 2, 2012 (Cuties)

I have a whim to list and rate all the cute guys in my favorite novels. I realize that I love romance since I love how one has to tell a lie in order to protect another, though it's quite sad. The sorrow disperses in the atmosphere and my tears burst out. That's how I fall in love with the naughty guys in novels. Recently, I love Archer in Hex Hall. I wonder what happens after Sophie and Archer stay together. Can they keep the harmony in Hecate? Sigh. I have no answers. I used to love Bella and Edward, though vampires having supernatural power is indeed gross. It's ridiculous that they never-ever face real danger since Edward and his family always solve the problems easily. Anyways, I love guys with strong personality, such as Patch in Hush-Hush. He is freaking hot, rogue, and playful. I love how he is willing to sacrifice everything in order to keep Nora safe. "Angel, I don't think you can understand the lengths I would go to if it means keeping you here with me". I am absolutely infatuated by Patch's sweetness. The sentence haunts me nearly a week and I can never forget it. It's the motivation that I keep reading other YA novels.

Tuesday, May 1, 2012 (Publish!)

May 1, 2012, a memorial day, is worth for all the book lovers to shout and scream and leap and dance. So do I. Destined, written by Aprilynne Pike, is the final book for Wings. Though I ain't insane with Wings, I will probably fall in love with Tanami if I keep reading. Another gorgeous novel is published today. Insurgent, a novel about a city composed of 5 fractions, is excited and twisting. I wonder what happens to Beatrice and Tobias since they are brave and courageable. I hope that they can beat the Erudite leader up since she ruins the harmony. I have been anticipating the publication of novels a long time ago. I am extremely excited that they publish today, but I can't download the ebooks. (Sigh) I am recently in love with book covers. I often compare the quality of book covers and judge whether the books are worth to buy. Since I don't want to waste a lot of money buying books, I hope to buy books that I can read over and over again without being bored.

Monday, April 30, 2012 (Crush)

Crush is complicated. The moment I am fond of another, I know that I have a crush. However, crush will never happen in real life for me. It only happens when I'm reading a novel. Archer Cross, a name sounds like a brave warrior in Crusade, is hot, rogue, playful, and sincere. Since I'm infatuated with all the "cute" characters in romance novels, I can hardly find someone so attractive in real life. I love how I'm always obsessed with the cute guys in novels, but the bad hobby actually disturbs me when I'm supposed to concentrate on school work. Haha. Since I am in love with Archer right now, everyday seems so bright for me. The birds are chirping, the sun is shining, and the breeze is kissing my face. I can hardly believe that I actually spend 28 hours on reading YA novels, more than a day in my life. Anyhow, I think at certain level, reading novels worth my time. At least I learn to increase my speed of reading English and understand more vocabularies. I firmly believe that I will have good dreams everyday from now on and I hope that he appears in my dream.

Sunday, April 29, 2012 (Broken)

My whole world breaks apart as I'm obsessed with YA novels. I can no longer control my behaviors and I feel that I'm not myself. I can't understand why can't I stop reading and searching and downloading, even the virus once scared me. Reading YA novels makes me feel...... comfortable, like I am revived and understand who I really am. Though I will be pissed off my behaviors, I still feel it's right to read novels. I immerse in Hex Hall, Demonglass, Spell Bound, and Divergent this weekend. Rachel Hawkins is awesome, a great story-teller. I guess that I have another crush, Archer. I love the amazing adventure with Sophie, Archer, and Jenna, though I screw up my weekend. I love Sophie's great sarcasm and I should definitely learn from her. I love how Hex Hall isn't twilight, though there is love triangle. I love how people always sacrifice for the ones they love. I love how enemies team up with each other. I love how Archer smiles at Sophie and how they go through all the difficulties. I LOVE HEX HALL! 

Thursday, April 26, 2012 (Life Experience)

I don't want to admit the cruel truth, yet it's indeed the truth. A famous host once wrote his son a letter, which was then spread out through the media. The father shared his lessons from life experiences and warned his son not to repeat the same mistake. The sentence impressed me the most was "Whether you love or not, we won't meet in afterlife." I feel empathy and whole-heartily agree with the father. Desperation immediately pours in my heart. I feel disconsolate that I can never ever meet my family again, especially my parents. They love me so much and sacrifice so much. But I'm never a thoughtful daughter. I should truly treasure the time spending with them since I don't have another chance to become their daughter. Life is brief. Anything happens. I can barely understand the meaning of "man proposes; God disposes", but I get it abruptly. I never know what will happen in the next moment, perhaps a disaster which takes away people's lives easily. I demand myself to treasure the time spending with my family because I don't want to regret. Regret past misdeeds won't bring my family alive.

Wednesday, April 25, 2012 (WWIII)

So, the WWIII between my friend and me starts...... It's not the COLD WAR, but it's a hilarious war between hot guys. I now introduce Patch from Hush-Hush. He's a perfect fallen angel, of course, excellent physical shape and rogue personality. He is willing to sacrifice his wings, soul, and all of his best for his love. He gives up his chance to become humans because he wants to protect his love. He is way more better than the actor who acts Sherlock Holmes in the BBC TV series, right? Benedict Cumberbatch will be married in few years and my friend will never meet him. Compares to Patch, he lives in my imagination perpetually. He will become the one who makes me laugh heartily and lives happily. However, who cares about Sherlock Holmes? You can't even chat with that actor and become his girlfriend. He's so not our age. What should you talk with him? (Besides congratulations that you're a great actor who gains all the girls' hearts) In conclusion, I would like to strongly emphasize that PATCH is so much better than THAT ACTOR. 

Tuesday, April 24, 2012 (Pride)

My dear old school, Tong-An elementary school, established its school website a long time ago. Whenever I feel disconsolate, I will search the school website and follow the school's recent activities. The purpose of tracking school news is to remind me my golden childhood. The most amazing part is class websites. I can't believe that my elementary-school teacher still keep all the beautiful works of our class. I will skim through all the pictures and smile heartily at the innocent faces we once had. Everyone was so cheerful, excited, and pleasant. I am jealous of the splendid past, and feel unsuitable nowadays. I miss all my dear friends. I regretted that I didn't treasure the precious time with my friends. I deplored that I didn't have enough time to speak my mind out loud to my friends. I have so many friends who are proud of me. I seriously miss my friends and would like to cry, weep, and wail. I remember my artworks, which are still well-preserved in the elementary school. Some day in the future, I will definitely revisit my school and be proud of myself. I will declare that the glazed painting is drawn by our class. I will make my school proud of me and celebrate my name. 

Monday, April 23, 2012 (2 Years Ago)

2 years ago, when I first moved away, I had a strong impression on my new community. My community has an extremely fresh smell. It smells like a whole-new hotel which secures my family. I wonder which brand of aromatic scent does the workers spread. Standing in front of the French window, I remember the fresh, fragrant smell which disperses in my lungs. I remember that I was enthusiastically reading Jin Yong's Demi-Gods and Semi-Devils. I missed the novel and would like to reread it. The plot is unpredictable so I wonder how can Jin Yong handle such a complicated story. I love his talents and stories. I can never resist to attractive novels, such as Silence. I ruin my weekends and PD day due to gorgeous novels. Sigh...... Anyways, I sincerely hope that Jin Yong can write more martial arts stories, though he is retiring. I hope that he can never ever stop writing and satisfy us readers' greedy appetites. Thanks to Jin Yong, his novels change my personality and life forever. I can understand the beauty of novels, appreciate, devour all the words, and build up unlimited imagination. 

Thursday, April 19, 2012 (Cheese & Chicken Enchilada)

Chicken enchilada is a corn tortilla rolled around chicken and sprinkled with cheese. Ms. Wallace  prepared cream cheese, havarti, munster, and port salut. Thus, we have mixed cheese in the delicious enchilada. The spicy chicken along with the colorful cheese look like Vincent Van Gogh's The Starry Night, which makes my stomach doing somersaults. I can hardly bear my desire to swallow the enchilada in one gulp. The enchilada looks so attractive as an adroit elf in the fairy-tale. The enchilada is too amazing to be real. The chicken and the cheese perform a perfect symphony which attract all the audience. Furthermore, I enjoy the delicious enchiladas while watching the melodic musical performance.  I can listen to the fluttering of the notes and identify different instruments. I never regret that I didn't join orchestra because I can have my own free time and enjoy my life. I won't sacrifice my leisure and torture myself in order to gain the useless credits. I only follow my own will and interests, such as cooking club. I have a strong will and opinions which make my life better.

Wednesday, April 18, 2012 (TAIMUN)

TAIMUN is honestly the best MUN I had ever have! The best part about MUN classes is to join MUN Conferences. Duh!? All the delegates are more talented and experienced than those in HSINMUN. TAIMAN truly treats all the delegates well. It provides us TAIMUN clothes, 8GB USB, reusable shopping bags, insect repellent, water, huge rooms, and awesome dinner party. Compare to ECOSOC, I prefer the small size of Human Rights Council since the delegates can understand each other better. I make two speeches and great amount of points of information. I try to attack the opponents and am glad that a delegate answered in note form. I love MUN since I can debate and improve my speed of reaction. Although I represent a drug country, Colombia, I still stand up for Colombia. (not my personal preference) We shopped in the night market and I bought three bags. Haha. But my mother wasn't happy not because I spent money, but because I bought cheap bags. She hoped that I could buy high-quality leather bags. The dinner party was definitely awesome since the food was fresh and delicious. I didn't join the dance since we went to the night market. I was extremely excited when I discover that we get to live in a family whereas we merely have 2 people. WAHAHA! Poor Jenny. She lived in a deluxe two-people room and she was jealous of our huge room. Great Job Alyssa-for getting the right key at the right moment. Anyways, it was quite interesting to show off the family room. In the TAIMUN, I met few old friends from HSINMUN and was glad to chat with them, though there was awkward silence. Furthermore, we met cute guys in TAIMUN. Right? I would like to visit Hong Kong some day. In conclusion, I wasn't quite satisfied that our main submitter's resolution didn't pass. It was the first one and all the delegates indeed had a fruitful debate. The major problem was that we didn't have enough brave co-submitters who would like to make position speeches, which gave the opponents chances to criticize our resolution and thus affect other delegates. Anyways, I am proud of our resolution, though there are minor mistakes. The chair and co-chair look so much more pleasant compare to ....... Lastly, I love TAIMUN a lot and hope to debate against the delegates who didn't approve our resolution next year.  

Tuesday, April 17, 2012 (PASMUN)

I'm so excited to join PASMUN and have a fruitful debate against China, Russia. Sorry to point the delegates directly. The delegate of Russia has dared to challenge the delegate of France, the delegate of France accepted the challenge and hoped to cooperate with the delegate of U.S., U.K., and Norway to defeat Russia with great effort. The delegate of France must do her best to push Russia into the abyss. She promised that she would hit a home run and struck Russia out of the game. She would never give up until her opponent was willing to surrender. Haha. Talking in third person sounds more professional. I am honored to represent France in ECOSOC, though Russia mocked that France has bankrupted and has to rely on Germany. France abhors countries which scorn at France and strongly believes that France will overcome all the difficulties as long as the people still support the French government. France firmly believes that the future of France is full of hopes and demonstrates a positive attitude toward French economy.

Monday, April 16, 2012 (Attitude)

I don't appreciate people's "whatsoever" attitude. I honestly dislike people who merely care about their academic works without any talents. I clearly understand that academic works are important since all the people hope to admit in top colleges. However, I don't appreciate the slipshod attitude toward extracurricular activities. If people join the activity, they should make the greatest effort and try their best. The activity isn't casual nor random. People should demonstrate a positive attitude toward these activities. I have met so many great people who are good at math, science, and all those academic works. I'm indeed proud of my awesome, gifted class. Students in our class are not only good at academic works, but also music, such as violin, piano, and flute; sports, such as track and field, baseball, swimming, and basketball. They are ALL-ROUND. They aren't stupid NERDS. The world doesn't need nerds, because they don't have creativity. The world needs people who are all-round, enthusiastic toward their interests. The world doesn't need people who merely care about their academic works, but without interests to live their lives fully.

Sunday, April 15, 2012 (Italy)

A dream is so reminiscent of people's future. However, I had a dream which reminded me my childhood. I traveled in Italy with my family in the dream. We were shopping in the mall and saw people selling clothes. When we approached to the counter, I met my pre-best friend, Amy, along with another friend, Venus. I was extremely surprised since I haven't met them for years. However, I was quite sad because they didn't invite me. I was so excited that I couldn't help but keep chattering. Still, there was an awkward silence. They shared their lives enthusiastically with me. We remembered the elementary-school life and wondered how was the teacher doing. When we were best friends, Amy told me that her dream was to become the best dancer. She admitted into a dance school. She was my best friend until an incident. However, we were grown-ups and no longer bothered about the past. Venus was beautiful as usual. She was clever, active, and adroit. When my parents yelled and woke me up, I realized that Italy was a mirage and my dear friends were still far from me. I felt disconsolate and was hard to believe in the truth. All the memories of childhood started to pour in my heart.

Thursday, April 12, 2012 (Why Love?)

Love is represented by a heart shape. However, the heart shape is easily broken and damaged by rumors. Why do people take out their hearts and tortured them just because they fall in love? If we already know that the ending is a tragedy, why do we still deeply trust love incorrigibly? If we can predict future, will we stay with the one who is doomed to failure, pain, and poverty? Can love overcome all the impossibles and rescue a soul? I have too many questions, but without any solutions. I wonder, how do people fall in love? How can they bear the pain when their lover betrays? If they already know the outcome, why do they still follow their destiny? Can they change the destiny? Is love the only answer when people risk their lives and are willing to sacrifice for the other? What's the boundary between selflessness and love? People expect love, but they don't want to be hurt. If love bears hatred, is hatred born by love? I can't understand how can people sacrifice for each other due to love. I don't trust love, and I might not trust love until I seriously experience it. Love is deep and beautiful, but my heart aches when love betrays.

Wednesday, April 11, 2012 (What's Love?)

Love is complicated, beautiful, and fragile. I believe in true love, but I don't believe there's true love in the world. I am impressed by the true love in Palace since the lovers can overcome the difficulties anytime. They love each other deeply. I wonder how can a person find its true love, the one who is willing to sacrifice for another. Love is like rainbow, always appears after torrential rain. But how can we find our own color in the colorful rainbow? Love is mysterious since people can easily hurt by love, but they can easily sacrifice for love. How can love turn people to become selfless? How can love change people's personality? Why is love so beautiful but so miserable? Why do people expect true love? If people don't have love, what will they become? A demon? A devil? How is it possible to leave your true love away even though you truly love him/ her? I contemplate about love during spring break, but I still can't find my own answers. If love is dangerous, I hope that I won't fall in love so I won't hurt my heart.  

Tuesday, April 10, 2012 (Confusion)

What can people do if they can't control their behaviors? Though they know that their behaviors are mistaken, they can't control their inclination due to fondness. What should I do? I know that it's wrong, but I can't "suppress" my desire. I can't rebel against the desire, which might lead me toward destruction. The school starts and I have to go back to normal. I can't keep doing whatsoever I want. However, I'm confused. I don't have the will power and courage to resist my desire. I can't face my desire bravely. I can't control myself. Lingering between moral and desire, I can't select the right one. The wrong one is so attractive that I become confused. I don't know what's my decision. I can't resist against my desire. I ain't strong enough to support myself. I break all the promises but I can't do the right choice. When can I go back to normal? Please. Please. Please. I cry with the characters, the plot, the drama. I can't betray them and leave them along. However, dramas are still dramas. I have to understand the truth clearly. I need to wake myself up in the eternal magic of dramas, the power that makes me cry, wail, regret, and laugh heartily. ANGELA!WAKE UP!

Monday, April 9, 2012 (Palace)

Palace is an awesome costume drama about how a modern girl involves in a series of plots, battles, and survives in Qing dynasty. Though my friends are fond of watching dramas, they aren't interested in costume dramas so I can't discuss excitedly with them. Thus, I express my feelings on blogger. A modern girl accidentally shuttled back to Qing dynasty. She discovered that she became a maid in the imperial palace. Unfortunately, she is bullied by the emperor's 8th son and his brothers since she dared to oppose against them in order to save her sworn sisters. 8th brother was impressed by her courage. 4th brother treated the maid well while she encountered difficulties and taught her to play the zither. Thus, she gradually fell in love with him. However, 8th brother declared that the maid was his girl because he has never met a girl whom he thought interesting and remembered fondly everyday. The maid refused the marriage with 8th brother publicly even though the emperor granted the marriage. She thought that 4th brother was her true love. However, she then discovered that 4th brother was eager to assassin her since she might become a threat. She was desperate and decided to change and rewrite history--stopped 4th brother from becoming emperor Yongzheng. Palace haunted me since the plot is attractive and the characters are active. I learn that the battles in harem are mysterious, cunning, and complicated. A mistake might cost people's lives easily. There aren't any heavenly principles because the emperor is God.

Sunday, April 8, 2012 (ANGER)

I never ever have such strong desire to slam the door and punch a person's face. But, who is it? I never realize that kings, emperors are such sly, crafty, cunning, and despicable. I am so emotional that I want to murder the Chinese emperor. What the hxxx is it? Ewww..... How come a father can snatch his son's girlfriend through power and holy status? How come a son of heaven can go against ethics? I almost want to shuttle back to that stupid palace and save the poor girl. But I have to emphasize that I am just watching a drama. The most ridiculous is that his son and the girl are in love! Why does the father break the couples? I love the couples so much and hope that they have a bright future, though I already know the ending, the tragedy. But THEY ARE IN LOVE! Damn emperor. Please give the poor couples a chance to stay together forever. They are worth for it. They are willing to sacrifice for the other though they suffer in the battles in harem. I learn that I can never trust a single person inside the palace since all of them are trying to poison enemies. People are atrocious and lose their moral standards. Thanks that I live in modern times.

Thursday, March 29, 2012 (Last but not Least)

Surmounting courage, determination, and persistence, I have to deplore that luckiness just isn't at my side. However, my strong willpower recover from depression and grow intensely throughout the time. My friend is so smart that she skips the afternoon classes claim to see the doctor, though I think that she probably holds on time and studies at home. I would like to skip classes; however, I love cooking club so much that I will never betray it. We make delicious brownies with chocolate chips, marshmallows, and nuts as a cover. The brownie looks smooth as a girl's straight hair and delicate as the soft cloud in the azure sky. The brownies smell extremely tasty. I can't wait to eat it!!! Ms. Wallace, our cooking club teacher, is hardworking and responsible. She always tests the recipe before cooking club members make the desserts or supper. She works really hard to prepare all the materials and teach us the skills. She respects the recipe and tells us where to buy the materials in Taiwan. I appreciate her attitude and hope that I have the same attitude to overcome all the difficulties on the tests. Geometry and Biology midterms are the last but not the least.

Wednesday, March 28, 2012 (Fallen)

I'm often a little bit atrocious, violent when struggling against rebound and jumbo. Since I have the strong will to grab the ball and win the game, I won't tolerate my enemies to grab the ball from me. Unfortunately, I'm not as tall as normal basketball players. Thus, I need to have a stronger physical power to grab the ball tightly. However, my action often "intimidates" my enemies, in which they think that I'm as powerful as when I'm bargaining against products. I guess that they are afraid of me, but I have to emphasize that I'm extremely kindhearted, generous, and benevolent. Don't be afraid of me when I'm playing basketball. All right? I don't treat people with malice in basketball games; I'm just trying my best to win the game. I always smile happily and joke cheerfully with all the classmates. It's quite funny that my basketball teammate and I "embrace" the ball so hard that none of us release the ball easily. The ending is that we both hold the ball and fall down on the ground until the coach says jumbo. We both have the determination of never giving up. I appreciate her perseverance and tough wills.

Tuesday, March 27, 2012 (Pressure)

Tomorrow, I have to face an unknown, difficult, intimidating challenge. I have both English and Expository midterms which give me great pressure. I always regret that I didn't study hard enough before midterms. Thus, I always have great pressure. People often have a false impression on me. They think that I'm hardworking, yet the truth is that I'm hardworking because I regret that I didn't put many efforts. I ain't a good student so I have to overcome the pressure on tests. I sincerely hope that I can improve and change my bad hobbits next time, though promise is destined to break. I can't believe in myself that I have great abilities to surmount the obstacles-- I don't have faith in myself whereas I'm so much more capable and can bear impossible challenges. I will summon courage and willpower to overcome the obstacles on tests. My motto is "Never Give Up" and I will stand up for myself. I won't give up any beams of hopes as long as I'm alive. Nobody can defeat and destroy me. I will challenge the tests by courage, determination, persistence, and perhaps fortune.

Monday, March 26, 2012 (Deep Thoughts)

A teacher enlightened me by encouraging, supporting me. I suddenly felt a retrospective warmth since I remembered my dear elementary-school teacher. She is similar to the teacher. She is fierce since she throws students' homework on the floor and claims that they are garbage. She slams the door whenever she's in a bad mood. She sees students as her own children so she treats us sincerely. She is a tiger mother at school. She is good at teaching and known for her "violent" attitude toward the students. However, all the students love her and learn from her. She inspires students and encourages us to create our own future. She gives us wishing cards right before every midterm and final, and she writes her expectations, hopes, and encouragement on the card. She writes personal letters to us students before graduation. She always understands the "current situation" in class and easily touches my feelings. I hate political affairs in class. I ain't good at socializing nor am I interested in cliques. I spend time focusing on my academic programs and hope to access high-quality education. She always supports me to surmount obstacles. Honestly, I don't have any problems with cliques in elementary school but not right now. I am suffering in the complicated cliques in our class. Thanks to the teacher, I feel so much more comfortable now.

Sunday, March 25, 2012 (Naruto)

Ninja is often a famous Japanese traditional character in mangas and cartoons. Ninjas are cool since they have special skills, such as shadow clone technique. Naruto is a cartoon marketed to male audience, but why can't girls watch it? I appreciate the main character, Naruto's spirit, since he is willing to sacrifice himself in order to protect his partners and village. Though he wasn't adept in ninja skills, he gradually improved and surpassed his teachers with hard work. As I watch him grow up and become stronger, I realize the importance of friendship, cooperation, and self-sacrifice. He doesn't want to give up his best friend, Sasuke, who has desired for unlimited power and strove for a revenge against his elder brother. He admonished and warned his best friend, yet the dark, evil desire saturated in Sasuke's heart. Naruto and Sasuke are best friends but best enemies. I felt pity and sarcastic for their relationships yet understood that it was indeed a truth. Sasuke became apathetic, indifferent, and hateful. Though Naruto tried to persuade Sasuke and brought him back to the village, it was impossible since Sasuke was powerful. The plot of Naruto was winding, attractive, and mysterious. I love the cartoon so much since I always appreciate the love of brotherhood.

Thursday, March 22, 2012 (Cinderella)

Cinderella was my favorite Disney character before. I love her kindhearted personality and witty which always solves problems easily. She was tortured by her stepmother after her father died. I feel sympathetic toward her and love her courage, determination, and will power to live her life fully. However, when I realize the deeper message of Cinderella, I feel ridiculously funny but hard to deny. If Cinderella isn't beautiful, the prince won't chase behind her and search her after the prom. If Cinderella is ugly, the prince won't fall in love with her at the first sight. Thus, the message is that beautiful girls have better chances. I laugh heartily and loudly when I see the truth. I feel so right and can't deny. Anyways, Cinderella gives children dreams and courage. If people are determined to live fully, they will make dreams come true and succeed. Cinderella is indeed a great story which has been rewrote and republished. Among the variations, I love Ella Enchanted the most and I can never forget how much dreams and hopes it brought me right before the final. I didn't study finals yet I spent time reading Ella Enchanted. The magic proved that Ella Enchanted bestowed me the power to get high grades.

Wednesday, March 21, 2012 (In Danger)

I've realized that basketball is dangerous since I've joined basketball team. We basketball girls all have the strong will to support us to fight against the enemies no matter what happens. However, it's different in PE. Since most of the students haven't realized the danger in basketball, they might easily injure. I felt sorrowful and painful for my dear classmate, Nicole, since she was in serious danger. She bumped her head against the ground accidentally. Unfortunately, we didn't have enough time to react and save her. I worry about her plight because I can understand how painful is to fall down. I hope that she can recover soon. Furthermore, I have more pressure and responsibility in basketball team now. As my dear upper schoolmate is graduating, I realize that I am facing a whole-new challenge. I am responsible to perform well in my position. My heart is saturated with pressure, which comes from the realization. I can't assure that I am prepared for the challenge since I don't have great skills. I better keep practicing basketball in order to face the challenge bravely. 

Tuesday, March 20, 2012 (The Westing Game)

I somehow feel more suitable to stay with kids, since I'm pretty immature and childish. I feel comfortable to chat with kids and share my opinions. They often respond me with sweet smiles or hearty laughs. I feel joyful to stay and chat and play with them, even though they aren't technically my classmates. The 8th graders are cute, interesting, and perhaps sincere. I befriend with them easily and have a firm friendship with the girls. As for the boys, we chat happily and gossip together. Right now, since they are reading the Westing Game, they often compare me with the Angela in the book. She is a bomber who dislikes her fiance. However, I'm so different from her, right? I'm so much more amiable and I won't bomb the wedding nor my house. Duh! I ain't insane! We are so different since I am more friendly and kindhearted. It's just quite funny and I always laugh at their "creative" comparison. Hope that we can remain a good friendship and joke with each other forever.

Monday, March 19, 2012 (Shock)

I feel extremely excited to play basketball in PE since I have been practicing for almost a year. I am supposed to be better than the others and I hope that I am. Unfortunately, I am quite aggressive and grab the ball from the opponents, which results in chaos. The opponents accuse me to grab their ball since they aren't familiar with the rules. I have to ask the coach to explain to them so that I can prove my innocence. I am shocked by the accuse and don't know that the girls are such fierce. They usually treat me well and talk with me cheerfully. I am abruptly dumbfounded and speechless since I don't understand why are they such infuriated. It's a practice game anyways. Though we all take it seriously, I am astonished by their strength and power. This is my first time shouted by my classmates. I am seriously shocked by their fierce and anger, and I understand that there are things that people can't do even though they don't break the rules.

Sunday, March 18, 2012 (In Fact......)

It's quite ironic that people think I'm a good student. In fact I don't intend to be a good student. I accidentally discovered that I exposed and took up new ideas faster than average students in my class in kindergarten. I found out that I could understand hard theorems and philosophical ideas with my creativity and imagination. Since I had great education in a higher level kindergarten, I had an easy life in first, second grades in elementary school in which I slept at 9:00 every single day. I gained knowledge along with my good grades and surpassed most of the students in my class. I had a golden childhood since I didn't study for most of the time but could still maintain my grades. That was how I discovered I was abnormal. Most of the classmates who recognized me thought I was intelligent, but I didn't think so. I had to work hard on math questions since I didn't get an elite math education in cram school when I was young. Haha. Maybe I might become a Math genius if I had an elite education. Anyways, now when I look at the awesome results make by my local school friends, I feel helpless for not understanding chemistry and physics, Math, sociology, geography, and the subject I once exceeded others-- Chinese. But I was glad that I didn't have to learn stupid history. My inspiration for posing the blog was due to the "incident" in Spanish class last Friday. Yeah, as I have indicated, I'M NOT A GOOD STUDENT. I didn't finish my Spanish homework (One question left), and I tried to do it in class. Unfortunately, due to my reputation, all my classmates were shocked and some cute, childish, BUT IMMATURE guys burst out my name so loud that the teacher seemed to understand it from their tone. It was extremely embarrassing since I didn't know what did I do! It's a normal incident in every student's life and it just happens to me. They shouted my name so loud that every single classmate in the class discovered that I didn't finish my homework. I was quite dumbfounded since the teacher notices that and gives us extra time to finish the work. Moreover, THE MOST UNBELIEVABLE was that the boys who have shouted my name out loud didn't finish homework either and had more pages blank than I do. I was ALMOST INSANE because the guys are pots calling the kettle back!!!! OMG!!! How come they could make fun of me!? Then, the guys just spread the story and one of them claimed that "Angela didn't finish her homework should be written on the Bible". I was entirely speechless and felt quite funny since the guys seemed to "respect" me so much that I was worth to be compared with the Bible. Haha. They are just so cute. I love their innocent expression when they hear the story. I couldn't help but starting to remember the great days I had in 7th-grade World History. Yeah, I should definitely share my wonderful days in the blogger some day. Anyways, the incident was memorial in my life and I will always laugh at myself and remind me ALWAYS DO MY HOMEWORK.

Thursday, March 15, 2012 (Poetry)

PAS annual poetry contest displays all the talented poets and inspires students to discover the deeper meaning of poems. We audience learn to appreciate different forms of poems and enjoy sharing the poets' opinions. However, I am inspired by not only poems, but also the beautiful accent of my schoolmates. I love the American accent since it sounds like an American. The accent sounds like you are a foreigner. My parents once told me that if people learn English in a nonEnglish-speaking country, they might have different accent than those of English-speaking countries. I am eager of imitating the accent and changes to mine. I don't want to have the same voice as others, but I want to have the same accent along with my voice. Hehe. I love my voice a lot, though it's high-pitched. I love my voice since I could sing as a soprano in choir, although it's quite key-off. (But practice makes perfect!!!) I don't understand why do people have different accent but it might be an interesting science fair topic. Anyways, I just want to practice my accent and change it, which was one of my dreams before.

Wednesday, March 14, 2012 (Carbon Footprint)

I was quite furious to retype my blogger due to technical issues. It's actually annoying since I have to remember and rewrite the entry. I admit that I suck at technology because I don't used to touch, understand computers well. Anyways, my journal is about carbon footprint. After testing the carbon footprint, I discover that I require 2.2 Earths. I start to contemplate to change my lifestyle because it's impossible to have more than one Earth. I love Earth, my dear planet, since it's gorgeously beautiful and I appreciate how vigorous creatures born in the peaceful nature. I should take public transportation since they can reduce the amounts of carbon dioxide and are cheap, convenient. I should walk to school since my house is really near to school. I should wake up earlier so I can have sufficient time to walk to school. I used to love walking since I can enjoy the scenery and exercise myself. Walking is beneficial because it helps circulatory system to work better. In conclusion, I will take public transportation instead of cars in order to protect the environment since I am a global citizen (perhaps) and a member of Earth village.

Tuesday, March 13, 2012 (Debate)

We MUN students have a debate about Syrian crisis today. We have been working on the position paper for a long time. I never predict that the debate will be such interesting, which is way more better than watching documentary videos. I enjoy debating with each other since I love to argue against people. I love to share my opinions publicly and defend my ideas. I represent the delegate of UK. I fully concentrate on the debate since I seriously want to defeat Russia/ China. I love laughing when people burst out funny replies, such as "The delegate will keep it as a secret." When the delegate replies that he/she will reply in note form, the delegate fails to reply the question and has to step down. It's quite awkward but no delegates will speak the truth. It's a good way to step down quietly. I love MUN conference more than MUN classes because they are multifarious. However, I gain knowledge about UN and MUN conference from MUN classes. MUN conference is always memorial because we can meet different people and make new friends. I am sincerely looking forward to join the TAIMUN in the coming month.

Monday, March 12, 2012 (Bad)

I am looking forward to play basketball for a long time. Since I was seriously illed, I couldn't practice last week and I did feel sad and bad. I miss basketball team so much. I love basketball and enjoy to practice with my dear teammates. I am cheerful that I can play basketball; however, the weather was horrible. I hate playing basketball under the rain since it will make me sick. After finished practicing McDonald, I felt that I couldn't bear anymore and warned myself against my mom's reminder. I felt that I should listen to my mom and make the right choice-- rest. Playing basketball while you almost get a fever is absolutely insane. I'm not stupid and I don't want to harm my deteriorating health. I felt the necessity to rest although I felt painful for not improving my basic skills. I felt that I was loosing some competitions and lost my great chance to learn more from the coach. I hope that it will not rain on Wednesday so I can practice basketball without worrying my health.

Sunday, March 11, 2012 (Weird)

I seriously feel weird recently. First, I should delete my previous entry in case I confuse people. Unfortunately, my name is a mistake. The judges make a mistake-- it should be my friend's poem. It is quite awkward and I actually don't know how to tell people if they ask me. I rather hope that my name isn't on the list at the beginning so I don't have to explain to others. I don't have to put myself in an awkward situation. Anyways, I will face the plight bravely. Just pretend nothing happens-- and that's all! Sometimes, I feel that I just don't fit in the society. I seem too childish, immature to stay in 9th grade. I feel better when I stay with those younger kids. I know them well and they chat with me easily. They are extremely active and talkative. I can never imagine myself to be quite quiet, since I used to be loud, energetic, and gossipy. When I first enrolled in PAS, I urged myself to adapt in the society no matter what happened because it was my last school in Taiwan. However, the society seems so complicated that I don't actually want to further understand it. 

Thursday, March 8, 2012 (Poetry Contest)

Miracle always happens in fairy tales, but not in real life. Still, the result is too amazing to be true. It's seriously true. I can't believe that some day, some point in my life, I will really have a chance to address my poem to the school. I can't believe that it's me who is going to recite a poem. Unfortunately, I am sick. Almost had a fever. I have a sore throat and keep coughing. I can't even speak properly and can't help but cough constantly. How am I supposed to recite a poem if I am seriously illed? How can I read my poem out loud with a weak, vulnerable voice? I feel sad for my poor voice and sincerely hope that I can recover soon. Yeah, very SOON. I am really thankful to join the poetry contest, but I feel bad for my friend since I know that she is eager to join the contest and has written a super long poem. I actually wonder why do the judges prefer a gloomy poem. Since I get to join the contest, I will do my best. I will get rid of my phobia of public speaking and speak slowly and softly. No matter what the result is, I will make best efforts because it's a precious experience.

Wednesday, March 7, 2012 (New Team)

It's definitely my day~!!! WAHAHAHA! During PE, we students reselect a new team since we are going to play a new sport-- basketball. I am so excited that I can't help but jumping around, though I am illed. Fortunately, I am pair up with my lovely basketball teammates, which means that we will become super-super powerful. However, Mr. Lee warned us that if we lose the game, we will be DEAD. SERIOUSLY DEAD. I will be ashamed if we lose the game since we have spent so much more time practicing basketball, and understanding the strategies. I am optimistic about my PE future whereas I was desperate last time. I am cheerful to have great team members and get to play basketball in PE. I am absolutely looking forward to win the victory and get high grades. My passion for PE has rebuilt in my heart and I hoped that it can maintain for awhile. I might become quite aggressive in basketball games since I wasn't satisfied with the previous games. Anyways, I am still kindhearted and extremely friendly.

Tuesday, March 6, 2012 (Considerable)

During MUN, students have to address a speech about their cultural perspective. I am inspired by their speeches since they give me ideas about their cultural background. My classmate, Eileen, shares her opinions which truly enlighten me. She said that Americans are more open-minded whereas Taiwanese (Chinese) are more conservative. In America, people often speak directly without thinking since that's how they're educated. People should speak their mind and express their personality. Individualism emphasizes "the moral worth of the individual" and encourages people to achieve their goals with independence and self-reliance. In America, if you hate someone, you will directly speak the truth "I hate you." However, in Taiwan, you will laugh and pretend that it's fine. You will smile and hide the real feelings. You won't say the truth since you are afraid of hurting another. After listening to her speech, I think that I should be more straightforward by speaking my mind, though I will care about others' feelings, too. I'm shy and afraid of speaking my mind. I hope that I can become braver to express both my feelings and opinions in order to reach real individualism.  

Monday, March 5, 2012 (Failure)

It wasn't my day. The Captain Ball Final was a total disaster. I was used to be the one who strived for victory. Unfortunately, I had to admit that I lost both the game and my confidence. I couldn't even find out the opponents' strategies. The most important was that I COULDN'T EVEN encourage my teammates. I guessed that at the beginning of the game we already lost. We lost since we didn't have enough confidence and courage to face the difficulties. We didn't have strong desire to win the game. I had to admit that I lost, my team lost, we all lost! I was extremely disappointed since I wasn't able to improve the morale. I failed miserably. I didn't know what was our team's problem and didn't distribute the work properly. I was gloomy, deplorable, and sorrowful since I didn't do a great job. I sincerely hope that my teammates and captain can beat the opponents sometime in the future if we had a chance to pair up again.

Sunday, March 4, 2012 (Sick)

When you are sick, you can especially feel how much your parents love you, because they love you so much, you want to return the love. They can take care of you without sleeping. They hope to transform the virus onto themselves because they don't want you to become sick. They devote themselves to you since you are their precious child. I guess this is true love. Selfless love without any return. Unfortunately, I was sick and almost had a fever. I had sore throat which burnt my throat harshly. I was exhausted and lack energy. I had a fitful sleep last night and couldn't fall asleep. I hated myself to feel ill but I couldn't change anything. I had to worry about homework, test, and blah blah blah. Thanks to my parents, they gave me courage and supports which allowed me to face the stupid viruses. Virus! I will defeat you soon! Challenge accepted!

Thursday, March 1, 2012 (CHEESECAKE)

Cheesecake is a lovely dessert with a soft, fresh cheese topping and a crust made of biscuit. The cheesecake we made are smoothy, creamy (high calories), and rich with tasty cheese. There are delicious oreoes at the bottom and oreo crusts are mixed with the cheesecake. Since I was born in the year of Rat, I love cheese very much when I was young. I always claim that cheese makes me become smarter, cleverer. Thus, cheese is healthy despite it might stuck inside the capillaries when we become old. Cheesecake was a popular dessert in ancient Greece, which was passed on through generations. The silken texture of cheese attracts me the most since it seems to say "Eat me!" Cheesecake is luscious because it has the perfect butterish yellow. The cheesecake is extremely smoothy and I enjoy the feeling when it melts inside my mouth. My instinct is similar to that of a mouse and thus I love cheese a lot. I like to show off the delicious cheese and encourage people to love cheese. Cheesecake is definitely gorgeous and wonderful so I am really looking forward to make cheesecake by myself in the future.

Wednesday, February 29, 2012 (Leap Day)

February 29, once every four years, is always a special day in my heart. Since the last February 29 was a long time ago, I couldn't remember my movements in detail. However, this year, I will record my day in the journal. I felt extraordinary exhausted because I had both PE and basketball team. I was cheerful that our team cooperated well and gradually improved in captain ball. I was excited that we had a chance to grab a beam of light and won the victory. However, we won't be arrogant because pride always leads to failure. I am eager to win in order to revenge. Well, revenge seems too harsh. My desire to win is able to echo in my teammates' hearts. I had basketball practice then. It was awesome though I was dizzy and tired. I didn't concentrate fully at first, but I focused on offending and defending soon. I tried to make as much efforts as possible since we have a game on Friday. The captain ball final is on next Monday and the basketball game is on Friday. I seriously hope that I can win both games along with my precious teammates.

Tuesday, February 28, 2012 (228)

February 28, the date of 228 Massacre, represents the forever trauma in Taiwanese' hearts. I am not supposed to be cheerful on February 28 because I feel bad for the victims' families. Honestly, I have a whim to accuse the injustice. Why are we worrying about the 228 Massacre, instead of extricating the Syrians? If we seriously want to walk out of the shadows, we should prevent the tragedy to happen in the world. However, I don't have the "authority" to defend for the Syrians. I love Taiwanese more because Taiwan is my homeland, the most beautiful country which bore me. What happened in 228? Basically, Taiwanese were slaughtered by the ROC administration. I'll never forget the temporary leader, Chen Yi, who commanded to slay innocent Taiwanese. There wasn't peaceful, nonviolent protests because all the protesters were DEAD. 228 became a Peace Memorial Day in Taiwan. Last year, we visited the 228 Peace Memorial Museum and further understood our homeland's history. I pray for all the victims' families and sincerely hope that the massacre will never occur in Taiwan, and the world.

Monday, February 27, 2012 (Realization)

"Life will find its own way" is my motto. And it turns out to be the truth. Though I was disappointed by my meaningless future goals and life, I regain my interest by reading the inspirational manga, Shugo Chara. Shugo Chara is a Japanese manga which inspired children with one's true self. I deeply believe that everyone has own guardian angels which represent the possibilities of oneself. The guardian angels will guide us to the right way and give us hopes whenever we encounter difficulties. I believe that I have guardian angels in my heart which will lead me toward a bright future. The guardian angels will always protect me because they are invisible in my heart. They will give me courage to face the unknown challenges. I also have faith in "Character Change" and believe that I will discover my true self in the future. I love Shugo Chara so much because it inspires me to pursue my own dreams. The manga remembered me my beautiful memory in local school. I have to first emphasize that I am not a supporter nor an antagonist of Twilight. I just feel thankful to Twilight. Thanks to Twilight, which was my beloved, inspirational novel, encouraged me to regain interest in studying when I was in local school. I COULDN'T explain why, but it just provided me the motivation to keep studying. It gave me an incredible power to get good grades unbelievably. Twilight was the first novel which I fell in love with since it was extremely romantic, which made me hyper. I realized that I was a perfect idealistic romanticism. I remembered how did I maintain top 3 in school while reading Twilight right before the finals. My classmates couldn't believe how Twilight changed and reformed both my character and grades. Furthermore, I discovered that I loved reading because I appreciated the romance in every single book. Love stories are ALWAYS THE BEST. In Shugo Chara, there is a extremely sweet love story which I strongly recommend to my friend, Jenny. I believe that she will fall in love with the main character, Ikuto, because he is a typical bad boy. OMG!!! I can't control my mood right now!!!! He is my perfect right guy. However, he isn't the major reason that I love Shugo Chara. I appreciate the main character, Amu, since she is courageous and kindhearted, though she is introvert. I love her because she believes in the guardian angels and is willing to discover her true self. I guess that I need my guardian angels to guide me right now. After reading the full manga, I eventually regain my self-confidence and believe myself that I will find my true self in the future. The guardian angels in my heart represent my radiance and will glitter as stars in the darkness.
This is my best journal EVER (:

Sunday, February 26, 2012 (Confess)

I have never had such a strong desire to write my journal for awhile. I am so excited to share my opinions and am willing to confess the truth. 
Honestly, I have lost my interest in studying and had no goals to achieve. Though I got good grades, I wasn't satisfied since my heart was void. Why did I care about my grades? I lost myself in a labyrinth called life. Life was too simple while it has no meaning to me. I couldn't understand why I didn't have motivation to study. I fell asleep when I was studying and couldn't concentrate and focus on my work. Since when, I became a robot who had no desire to study? I felt sad and sorry for myself but I couldn't find a way to regain my interest. I have experienced a tough life in local school because I had tests every single day. TESTS. TESTS. TESTS. That's all I had to prepare every day. My mood was capricious because I had too much to worry. However, something changed my life in local school and brought me a beam of bright light--novels. I used to study in library by myself every Sunday. Library was meaningful to me because I had a strong connection with it. Studying by myself in a library was effective. However, there was a heaven in library. When I rested and literally tricked my parents in order to read the novels for 1.5 hours, my heart pumped hard and fast but I was extremely excited to read novels. Reading novels was my best enjoyment ever. After I read few chapters of novels, I would work harder to finish the practice books since I felt guilty. Unfortunately, life in PAS was so simple and easy that I had a bunch of free time. When my local-school classmates were working hard every day, I was wasting my time and dilly-dallying. I didn't have to work hard to get straight As but I felt an unexplained void. Getting good grades became easy while I gradually adapted in the new environment. In the meanwhile, I lost my interest and future goals because life was too easy. What should I do? 

Thursday, February 23, 2012 (Cookies)

As the title has indicated, we cooking class members made tasty, delicious cookies in cooking club. I love chocolate chip cookies, peanut butter cookies, and raspberry-oreo cookies. I am impressed by Ms. Wallace's recipe in which she taught us to make raisin cookies. The raisin cookies are healthy, simple, and most important, they melt in mouth swiftly. I love my cooking group pretty much because we cooperate well. Though I'm the youngest and don't seem to fit in the high school society, the upper schoolmates treat me friendly. They are polite, cheerful and they care about me. I am glad that I can have a chance to acquaint with those kindhearted schoolmates. Although I can't join their conversation, I listen and smile and respect my upper schoolmates. I learn to make friends by good behaviors and a common language all over the world-- smile. Moreover, I learn the real meaning of "Fake it until you make it".

Wednesday, February 22, 2012 (Major)

Major is my favorite sports manga series since I acquainted with baseball. Though I am not good at baseball, I have a passion to cheer for my team. I love the main character, Goro, who is a successful pitcher, since he is absolutely a passionate, enthusiastic baseball fanatic. His passion usually encourages the morale and changes the ball game around. Though he broke his right arm, he disciplined his left arm and regained his position as a pitcher. Though he got yips, which prevented from pitching, he recovered and trained hardly in order to become a number-4 hitter. I appreciate his courage, talents, and passion since he NEVER gave up playing baseball though he was at the verge of death. I admire him so much that I hope I could become a baseball player afterlife. Haha. How come a girl who strike all the time is able to become a baseball player? Anyways, the manga seriously inspires me to reach my dream no matter how hard, faraway it is, hope will give me the wings to fly.

The Seven Ages of Man Quickwrite

I think that the seven ages of a person's life are infant, teenager, ambitions (dreams), adulthood, love, elderhood, realization, and childhood. I am an abnormal person, and thus my explanations are based on my thoughts and creativity. As the infant comes along the world crying, it begins its journey to discover the world. The infant is naive, innocent, but it will gain knowledge throughout the time. The infant then becomes a teenager, who is somehow rebellious and has his/her own opinions. The teenager faces the stage of growing up, so he/she needs to traverse the winding paths and overcome the difficulties along with family, friends, and teachers. While the teenagers are growing up, most of them start to think about the future and dreams. We all embrace beautiful dreams, though they are faraway, but it's possible to achieve the goals. We start to develop ambitions in order to fulfill self-esteem and try to make our dreams come true. The next stage is adulthood. People become mature, independent, self-sufficient, and most important, become responsible for their behavior. We learn to be responsible because we are no longer kids. Kids can make mistakes because they are still young, childish; however, adults are the models of kids. Adults have to become mature. (Sigh~) I don't want to become an adult! People might have true love and decide to have a long-term love relationship-- marriage in adulthood. When we are young, we might meet people who impress, amaze us, but they are just splendid passengers who decorate, enrich our lives. We will eventually find the true love who is born to belong to each other. I believe that true love will accompany us till elderhood. People become old in elderhood and they start to remember what happens in their wonderful, mediocre, or miserable life. They start to have slower pace of life since they have encountered all the difficulties through the wind and rain. Eventually, elder people might achieve self-realization, in which they understand nihility. Everything is nothing; nothing is everything. I believe in Buddhism and I hope to reach nihility in the future. Why do I believe that the last stage is childhood? Because I believe that elder people will rejuvenate. Elder people start to drop rice, can't hold the spoon firmly, which act like babies, because they are learning to become angels but can't adapt in the form of angels. At the last moment of living, people will suddenly remember all the beauty of life, become lucid, clear, and join the choir invisible along with a feeling of incredible freedom.

Tuesday, February 21, 2012 (Spanish Presentation & CTY)

MUHAHAHA!!! Why am I laughing in a weird way? I don't know either. I have been preparing for the Cuba presentation for a month. I did my best to make an awesome prezi, though there were minor mistakes. I research information and make efforts in making a presentation because I want to be better than ........ I think that our group did a great job because our presentation was quite fluent, and we are confident. But I dislike people who do nothing but wait for the results. I hate to pair up with those people. I hope that we can cooperate, instead of dividing unfair works. However, I still love my dear partners. When did I have such disgusting tone? Today, I am overly exciting and thus I become self-sarcastic. Why? WHY? WHY? Because I FINALLY receive the response from CTY!!!! Yaaahhh!!!! I am enrolled in High School Fast-Paced Chemistry, which is my main priority. Thanks God!!! "God Bless Everyone!"