Monday, April 30, 2012 (Crush)

Crush is complicated. The moment I am fond of another, I know that I have a crush. However, crush will never happen in real life for me. It only happens when I'm reading a novel. Archer Cross, a name sounds like a brave warrior in Crusade, is hot, rogue, playful, and sincere. Since I'm infatuated with all the "cute" characters in romance novels, I can hardly find someone so attractive in real life. I love how I'm always obsessed with the cute guys in novels, but the bad hobby actually disturbs me when I'm supposed to concentrate on school work. Haha. Since I am in love with Archer right now, everyday seems so bright for me. The birds are chirping, the sun is shining, and the breeze is kissing my face. I can hardly believe that I actually spend 28 hours on reading YA novels, more than a day in my life. Anyhow, I think at certain level, reading novels worth my time. At least I learn to increase my speed of reading English and understand more vocabularies. I firmly believe that I will have good dreams everyday from now on and I hope that he appears in my dream.

Sunday, April 29, 2012 (Broken)

My whole world breaks apart as I'm obsessed with YA novels. I can no longer control my behaviors and I feel that I'm not myself. I can't understand why can't I stop reading and searching and downloading, even the virus once scared me. Reading YA novels makes me feel...... comfortable, like I am revived and understand who I really am. Though I will be pissed off my behaviors, I still feel it's right to read novels. I immerse in Hex Hall, Demonglass, Spell Bound, and Divergent this weekend. Rachel Hawkins is awesome, a great story-teller. I guess that I have another crush, Archer. I love the amazing adventure with Sophie, Archer, and Jenna, though I screw up my weekend. I love Sophie's great sarcasm and I should definitely learn from her. I love how Hex Hall isn't twilight, though there is love triangle. I love how people always sacrifice for the ones they love. I love how enemies team up with each other. I love how Archer smiles at Sophie and how they go through all the difficulties. I LOVE HEX HALL! 

Thursday, April 26, 2012 (Life Experience)

I don't want to admit the cruel truth, yet it's indeed the truth. A famous host once wrote his son a letter, which was then spread out through the media. The father shared his lessons from life experiences and warned his son not to repeat the same mistake. The sentence impressed me the most was "Whether you love or not, we won't meet in afterlife." I feel empathy and whole-heartily agree with the father. Desperation immediately pours in my heart. I feel disconsolate that I can never ever meet my family again, especially my parents. They love me so much and sacrifice so much. But I'm never a thoughtful daughter. I should truly treasure the time spending with them since I don't have another chance to become their daughter. Life is brief. Anything happens. I can barely understand the meaning of "man proposes; God disposes", but I get it abruptly. I never know what will happen in the next moment, perhaps a disaster which takes away people's lives easily. I demand myself to treasure the time spending with my family because I don't want to regret. Regret past misdeeds won't bring my family alive.

Wednesday, April 25, 2012 (WWIII)

So, the WWIII between my friend and me starts...... It's not the COLD WAR, but it's a hilarious war between hot guys. I now introduce Patch from Hush-Hush. He's a perfect fallen angel, of course, excellent physical shape and rogue personality. He is willing to sacrifice his wings, soul, and all of his best for his love. He gives up his chance to become humans because he wants to protect his love. He is way more better than the actor who acts Sherlock Holmes in the BBC TV series, right? Benedict Cumberbatch will be married in few years and my friend will never meet him. Compares to Patch, he lives in my imagination perpetually. He will become the one who makes me laugh heartily and lives happily. However, who cares about Sherlock Holmes? You can't even chat with that actor and become his girlfriend. He's so not our age. What should you talk with him? (Besides congratulations that you're a great actor who gains all the girls' hearts) In conclusion, I would like to strongly emphasize that PATCH is so much better than THAT ACTOR. 

Tuesday, April 24, 2012 (Pride)

My dear old school, Tong-An elementary school, established its school website a long time ago. Whenever I feel disconsolate, I will search the school website and follow the school's recent activities. The purpose of tracking school news is to remind me my golden childhood. The most amazing part is class websites. I can't believe that my elementary-school teacher still keep all the beautiful works of our class. I will skim through all the pictures and smile heartily at the innocent faces we once had. Everyone was so cheerful, excited, and pleasant. I am jealous of the splendid past, and feel unsuitable nowadays. I miss all my dear friends. I regretted that I didn't treasure the precious time with my friends. I deplored that I didn't have enough time to speak my mind out loud to my friends. I have so many friends who are proud of me. I seriously miss my friends and would like to cry, weep, and wail. I remember my artworks, which are still well-preserved in the elementary school. Some day in the future, I will definitely revisit my school and be proud of myself. I will declare that the glazed painting is drawn by our class. I will make my school proud of me and celebrate my name. 

Monday, April 23, 2012 (2 Years Ago)

2 years ago, when I first moved away, I had a strong impression on my new community. My community has an extremely fresh smell. It smells like a whole-new hotel which secures my family. I wonder which brand of aromatic scent does the workers spread. Standing in front of the French window, I remember the fresh, fragrant smell which disperses in my lungs. I remember that I was enthusiastically reading Jin Yong's Demi-Gods and Semi-Devils. I missed the novel and would like to reread it. The plot is unpredictable so I wonder how can Jin Yong handle such a complicated story. I love his talents and stories. I can never resist to attractive novels, such as Silence. I ruin my weekends and PD day due to gorgeous novels. Sigh...... Anyways, I sincerely hope that Jin Yong can write more martial arts stories, though he is retiring. I hope that he can never ever stop writing and satisfy us readers' greedy appetites. Thanks to Jin Yong, his novels change my personality and life forever. I can understand the beauty of novels, appreciate, devour all the words, and build up unlimited imagination. 

Thursday, April 19, 2012 (Cheese & Chicken Enchilada)

Chicken enchilada is a corn tortilla rolled around chicken and sprinkled with cheese. Ms. Wallace  prepared cream cheese, havarti, munster, and port salut. Thus, we have mixed cheese in the delicious enchilada. The spicy chicken along with the colorful cheese look like Vincent Van Gogh's The Starry Night, which makes my stomach doing somersaults. I can hardly bear my desire to swallow the enchilada in one gulp. The enchilada looks so attractive as an adroit elf in the fairy-tale. The enchilada is too amazing to be real. The chicken and the cheese perform a perfect symphony which attract all the audience. Furthermore, I enjoy the delicious enchiladas while watching the melodic musical performance.  I can listen to the fluttering of the notes and identify different instruments. I never regret that I didn't join orchestra because I can have my own free time and enjoy my life. I won't sacrifice my leisure and torture myself in order to gain the useless credits. I only follow my own will and interests, such as cooking club. I have a strong will and opinions which make my life better.

Wednesday, April 18, 2012 (TAIMUN)

TAIMUN is honestly the best MUN I had ever have! The best part about MUN classes is to join MUN Conferences. Duh!? All the delegates are more talented and experienced than those in HSINMUN. TAIMAN truly treats all the delegates well. It provides us TAIMUN clothes, 8GB USB, reusable shopping bags, insect repellent, water, huge rooms, and awesome dinner party. Compare to ECOSOC, I prefer the small size of Human Rights Council since the delegates can understand each other better. I make two speeches and great amount of points of information. I try to attack the opponents and am glad that a delegate answered in note form. I love MUN since I can debate and improve my speed of reaction. Although I represent a drug country, Colombia, I still stand up for Colombia. (not my personal preference) We shopped in the night market and I bought three bags. Haha. But my mother wasn't happy not because I spent money, but because I bought cheap bags. She hoped that I could buy high-quality leather bags. The dinner party was definitely awesome since the food was fresh and delicious. I didn't join the dance since we went to the night market. I was extremely excited when I discover that we get to live in a family whereas we merely have 2 people. WAHAHA! Poor Jenny. She lived in a deluxe two-people room and she was jealous of our huge room. Great Job Alyssa-for getting the right key at the right moment. Anyways, it was quite interesting to show off the family room. In the TAIMUN, I met few old friends from HSINMUN and was glad to chat with them, though there was awkward silence. Furthermore, we met cute guys in TAIMUN. Right? I would like to visit Hong Kong some day. In conclusion, I wasn't quite satisfied that our main submitter's resolution didn't pass. It was the first one and all the delegates indeed had a fruitful debate. The major problem was that we didn't have enough brave co-submitters who would like to make position speeches, which gave the opponents chances to criticize our resolution and thus affect other delegates. Anyways, I am proud of our resolution, though there are minor mistakes. The chair and co-chair look so much more pleasant compare to ....... Lastly, I love TAIMUN a lot and hope to debate against the delegates who didn't approve our resolution next year.  

Tuesday, April 17, 2012 (PASMUN)

I'm so excited to join PASMUN and have a fruitful debate against China, Russia. Sorry to point the delegates directly. The delegate of Russia has dared to challenge the delegate of France, the delegate of France accepted the challenge and hoped to cooperate with the delegate of U.S., U.K., and Norway to defeat Russia with great effort. The delegate of France must do her best to push Russia into the abyss. She promised that she would hit a home run and struck Russia out of the game. She would never give up until her opponent was willing to surrender. Haha. Talking in third person sounds more professional. I am honored to represent France in ECOSOC, though Russia mocked that France has bankrupted and has to rely on Germany. France abhors countries which scorn at France and strongly believes that France will overcome all the difficulties as long as the people still support the French government. France firmly believes that the future of France is full of hopes and demonstrates a positive attitude toward French economy.

Monday, April 16, 2012 (Attitude)

I don't appreciate people's "whatsoever" attitude. I honestly dislike people who merely care about their academic works without any talents. I clearly understand that academic works are important since all the people hope to admit in top colleges. However, I don't appreciate the slipshod attitude toward extracurricular activities. If people join the activity, they should make the greatest effort and try their best. The activity isn't casual nor random. People should demonstrate a positive attitude toward these activities. I have met so many great people who are good at math, science, and all those academic works. I'm indeed proud of my awesome, gifted class. Students in our class are not only good at academic works, but also music, such as violin, piano, and flute; sports, such as track and field, baseball, swimming, and basketball. They are ALL-ROUND. They aren't stupid NERDS. The world doesn't need nerds, because they don't have creativity. The world needs people who are all-round, enthusiastic toward their interests. The world doesn't need people who merely care about their academic works, but without interests to live their lives fully.

Sunday, April 15, 2012 (Italy)

A dream is so reminiscent of people's future. However, I had a dream which reminded me my childhood. I traveled in Italy with my family in the dream. We were shopping in the mall and saw people selling clothes. When we approached to the counter, I met my pre-best friend, Amy, along with another friend, Venus. I was extremely surprised since I haven't met them for years. However, I was quite sad because they didn't invite me. I was so excited that I couldn't help but keep chattering. Still, there was an awkward silence. They shared their lives enthusiastically with me. We remembered the elementary-school life and wondered how was the teacher doing. When we were best friends, Amy told me that her dream was to become the best dancer. She admitted into a dance school. She was my best friend until an incident. However, we were grown-ups and no longer bothered about the past. Venus was beautiful as usual. She was clever, active, and adroit. When my parents yelled and woke me up, I realized that Italy was a mirage and my dear friends were still far from me. I felt disconsolate and was hard to believe in the truth. All the memories of childhood started to pour in my heart.

Thursday, April 12, 2012 (Why Love?)

Love is represented by a heart shape. However, the heart shape is easily broken and damaged by rumors. Why do people take out their hearts and tortured them just because they fall in love? If we already know that the ending is a tragedy, why do we still deeply trust love incorrigibly? If we can predict future, will we stay with the one who is doomed to failure, pain, and poverty? Can love overcome all the impossibles and rescue a soul? I have too many questions, but without any solutions. I wonder, how do people fall in love? How can they bear the pain when their lover betrays? If they already know the outcome, why do they still follow their destiny? Can they change the destiny? Is love the only answer when people risk their lives and are willing to sacrifice for the other? What's the boundary between selflessness and love? People expect love, but they don't want to be hurt. If love bears hatred, is hatred born by love? I can't understand how can people sacrifice for each other due to love. I don't trust love, and I might not trust love until I seriously experience it. Love is deep and beautiful, but my heart aches when love betrays.

Wednesday, April 11, 2012 (What's Love?)

Love is complicated, beautiful, and fragile. I believe in true love, but I don't believe there's true love in the world. I am impressed by the true love in Palace since the lovers can overcome the difficulties anytime. They love each other deeply. I wonder how can a person find its true love, the one who is willing to sacrifice for another. Love is like rainbow, always appears after torrential rain. But how can we find our own color in the colorful rainbow? Love is mysterious since people can easily hurt by love, but they can easily sacrifice for love. How can love turn people to become selfless? How can love change people's personality? Why is love so beautiful but so miserable? Why do people expect true love? If people don't have love, what will they become? A demon? A devil? How is it possible to leave your true love away even though you truly love him/ her? I contemplate about love during spring break, but I still can't find my own answers. If love is dangerous, I hope that I won't fall in love so I won't hurt my heart.  

Tuesday, April 10, 2012 (Confusion)

What can people do if they can't control their behaviors? Though they know that their behaviors are mistaken, they can't control their inclination due to fondness. What should I do? I know that it's wrong, but I can't "suppress" my desire. I can't rebel against the desire, which might lead me toward destruction. The school starts and I have to go back to normal. I can't keep doing whatsoever I want. However, I'm confused. I don't have the will power and courage to resist my desire. I can't face my desire bravely. I can't control myself. Lingering between moral and desire, I can't select the right one. The wrong one is so attractive that I become confused. I don't know what's my decision. I can't resist against my desire. I ain't strong enough to support myself. I break all the promises but I can't do the right choice. When can I go back to normal? Please. Please. Please. I cry with the characters, the plot, the drama. I can't betray them and leave them along. However, dramas are still dramas. I have to understand the truth clearly. I need to wake myself up in the eternal magic of dramas, the power that makes me cry, wail, regret, and laugh heartily. ANGELA!WAKE UP!

Monday, April 9, 2012 (Palace)

Palace is an awesome costume drama about how a modern girl involves in a series of plots, battles, and survives in Qing dynasty. Though my friends are fond of watching dramas, they aren't interested in costume dramas so I can't discuss excitedly with them. Thus, I express my feelings on blogger. A modern girl accidentally shuttled back to Qing dynasty. She discovered that she became a maid in the imperial palace. Unfortunately, she is bullied by the emperor's 8th son and his brothers since she dared to oppose against them in order to save her sworn sisters. 8th brother was impressed by her courage. 4th brother treated the maid well while she encountered difficulties and taught her to play the zither. Thus, she gradually fell in love with him. However, 8th brother declared that the maid was his girl because he has never met a girl whom he thought interesting and remembered fondly everyday. The maid refused the marriage with 8th brother publicly even though the emperor granted the marriage. She thought that 4th brother was her true love. However, she then discovered that 4th brother was eager to assassin her since she might become a threat. She was desperate and decided to change and rewrite history--stopped 4th brother from becoming emperor Yongzheng. Palace haunted me since the plot is attractive and the characters are active. I learn that the battles in harem are mysterious, cunning, and complicated. A mistake might cost people's lives easily. There aren't any heavenly principles because the emperor is God.

Sunday, April 8, 2012 (ANGER)

I never ever have such strong desire to slam the door and punch a person's face. But, who is it? I never realize that kings, emperors are such sly, crafty, cunning, and despicable. I am so emotional that I want to murder the Chinese emperor. What the hxxx is it? Ewww..... How come a father can snatch his son's girlfriend through power and holy status? How come a son of heaven can go against ethics? I almost want to shuttle back to that stupid palace and save the poor girl. But I have to emphasize that I am just watching a drama. The most ridiculous is that his son and the girl are in love! Why does the father break the couples? I love the couples so much and hope that they have a bright future, though I already know the ending, the tragedy. But THEY ARE IN LOVE! Damn emperor. Please give the poor couples a chance to stay together forever. They are worth for it. They are willing to sacrifice for the other though they suffer in the battles in harem. I learn that I can never trust a single person inside the palace since all of them are trying to poison enemies. People are atrocious and lose their moral standards. Thanks that I live in modern times.