Sunday, March 11, 2012 (Weird)

I seriously feel weird recently. First, I should delete my previous entry in case I confuse people. Unfortunately, my name is a mistake. The judges make a mistake-- it should be my friend's poem. It is quite awkward and I actually don't know how to tell people if they ask me. I rather hope that my name isn't on the list at the beginning so I don't have to explain to others. I don't have to put myself in an awkward situation. Anyways, I will face the plight bravely. Just pretend nothing happens-- and that's all! Sometimes, I feel that I just don't fit in the society. I seem too childish, immature to stay in 9th grade. I feel better when I stay with those younger kids. I know them well and they chat with me easily. They are extremely active and talkative. I can never imagine myself to be quite quiet, since I used to be loud, energetic, and gossipy. When I first enrolled in PAS, I urged myself to adapt in the society no matter what happened because it was my last school in Taiwan. However, the society seems so complicated that I don't actually want to further understand it. 

Thursday, March 8, 2012 (Poetry Contest)

Miracle always happens in fairy tales, but not in real life. Still, the result is too amazing to be true. It's seriously true. I can't believe that some day, some point in my life, I will really have a chance to address my poem to the school. I can't believe that it's me who is going to recite a poem. Unfortunately, I am sick. Almost had a fever. I have a sore throat and keep coughing. I can't even speak properly and can't help but cough constantly. How am I supposed to recite a poem if I am seriously illed? How can I read my poem out loud with a weak, vulnerable voice? I feel sad for my poor voice and sincerely hope that I can recover soon. Yeah, very SOON. I am really thankful to join the poetry contest, but I feel bad for my friend since I know that she is eager to join the contest and has written a super long poem. I actually wonder why do the judges prefer a gloomy poem. Since I get to join the contest, I will do my best. I will get rid of my phobia of public speaking and speak slowly and softly. No matter what the result is, I will make best efforts because it's a precious experience.

Wednesday, March 7, 2012 (New Team)

It's definitely my day~!!! WAHAHAHA! During PE, we students reselect a new team since we are going to play a new sport-- basketball. I am so excited that I can't help but jumping around, though I am illed. Fortunately, I am pair up with my lovely basketball teammates, which means that we will become super-super powerful. However, Mr. Lee warned us that if we lose the game, we will be DEAD. SERIOUSLY DEAD. I will be ashamed if we lose the game since we have spent so much more time practicing basketball, and understanding the strategies. I am optimistic about my PE future whereas I was desperate last time. I am cheerful to have great team members and get to play basketball in PE. I am absolutely looking forward to win the victory and get high grades. My passion for PE has rebuilt in my heart and I hoped that it can maintain for awhile. I might become quite aggressive in basketball games since I wasn't satisfied with the previous games. Anyways, I am still kindhearted and extremely friendly.

Tuesday, March 6, 2012 (Considerable)

During MUN, students have to address a speech about their cultural perspective. I am inspired by their speeches since they give me ideas about their cultural background. My classmate, Eileen, shares her opinions which truly enlighten me. She said that Americans are more open-minded whereas Taiwanese (Chinese) are more conservative. In America, people often speak directly without thinking since that's how they're educated. People should speak their mind and express their personality. Individualism emphasizes "the moral worth of the individual" and encourages people to achieve their goals with independence and self-reliance. In America, if you hate someone, you will directly speak the truth "I hate you." However, in Taiwan, you will laugh and pretend that it's fine. You will smile and hide the real feelings. You won't say the truth since you are afraid of hurting another. After listening to her speech, I think that I should be more straightforward by speaking my mind, though I will care about others' feelings, too. I'm shy and afraid of speaking my mind. I hope that I can become braver to express both my feelings and opinions in order to reach real individualism.  

Monday, March 5, 2012 (Failure)

It wasn't my day. The Captain Ball Final was a total disaster. I was used to be the one who strived for victory. Unfortunately, I had to admit that I lost both the game and my confidence. I couldn't even find out the opponents' strategies. The most important was that I COULDN'T EVEN encourage my teammates. I guessed that at the beginning of the game we already lost. We lost since we didn't have enough confidence and courage to face the difficulties. We didn't have strong desire to win the game. I had to admit that I lost, my team lost, we all lost! I was extremely disappointed since I wasn't able to improve the morale. I failed miserably. I didn't know what was our team's problem and didn't distribute the work properly. I was gloomy, deplorable, and sorrowful since I didn't do a great job. I sincerely hope that my teammates and captain can beat the opponents sometime in the future if we had a chance to pair up again.

Sunday, March 4, 2012 (Sick)

When you are sick, you can especially feel how much your parents love you, because they love you so much, you want to return the love. They can take care of you without sleeping. They hope to transform the virus onto themselves because they don't want you to become sick. They devote themselves to you since you are their precious child. I guess this is true love. Selfless love without any return. Unfortunately, I was sick and almost had a fever. I had sore throat which burnt my throat harshly. I was exhausted and lack energy. I had a fitful sleep last night and couldn't fall asleep. I hated myself to feel ill but I couldn't change anything. I had to worry about homework, test, and blah blah blah. Thanks to my parents, they gave me courage and supports which allowed me to face the stupid viruses. Virus! I will defeat you soon! Challenge accepted!

Thursday, March 1, 2012 (CHEESECAKE)

Cheesecake is a lovely dessert with a soft, fresh cheese topping and a crust made of biscuit. The cheesecake we made are smoothy, creamy (high calories), and rich with tasty cheese. There are delicious oreoes at the bottom and oreo crusts are mixed with the cheesecake. Since I was born in the year of Rat, I love cheese very much when I was young. I always claim that cheese makes me become smarter, cleverer. Thus, cheese is healthy despite it might stuck inside the capillaries when we become old. Cheesecake was a popular dessert in ancient Greece, which was passed on through generations. The silken texture of cheese attracts me the most since it seems to say "Eat me!" Cheesecake is luscious because it has the perfect butterish yellow. The cheesecake is extremely smoothy and I enjoy the feeling when it melts inside my mouth. My instinct is similar to that of a mouse and thus I love cheese a lot. I like to show off the delicious cheese and encourage people to love cheese. Cheesecake is definitely gorgeous and wonderful so I am really looking forward to make cheesecake by myself in the future.