Tuesday, April 10, 2012 (Confusion)

What can people do if they can't control their behaviors? Though they know that their behaviors are mistaken, they can't control their inclination due to fondness. What should I do? I know that it's wrong, but I can't "suppress" my desire. I can't rebel against the desire, which might lead me toward destruction. The school starts and I have to go back to normal. I can't keep doing whatsoever I want. However, I'm confused. I don't have the will power and courage to resist my desire. I can't face my desire bravely. I can't control myself. Lingering between moral and desire, I can't select the right one. The wrong one is so attractive that I become confused. I don't know what's my decision. I can't resist against my desire. I ain't strong enough to support myself. I break all the promises but I can't do the right choice. When can I go back to normal? Please. Please. Please. I cry with the characters, the plot, the drama. I can't betray them and leave them along. However, dramas are still dramas. I have to understand the truth clearly. I need to wake myself up in the eternal magic of dramas, the power that makes me cry, wail, regret, and laugh heartily. ANGELA!WAKE UP!