Wednesday, February 29, 2012 (Leap Day)

February 29, once every four years, is always a special day in my heart. Since the last February 29 was a long time ago, I couldn't remember my movements in detail. However, this year, I will record my day in the journal. I felt extraordinary exhausted because I had both PE and basketball team. I was cheerful that our team cooperated well and gradually improved in captain ball. I was excited that we had a chance to grab a beam of light and won the victory. However, we won't be arrogant because pride always leads to failure. I am eager to win in order to revenge. Well, revenge seems too harsh. My desire to win is able to echo in my teammates' hearts. I had basketball practice then. It was awesome though I was dizzy and tired. I didn't concentrate fully at first, but I focused on offending and defending soon. I tried to make as much efforts as possible since we have a game on Friday. The captain ball final is on next Monday and the basketball game is on Friday. I seriously hope that I can win both games along with my precious teammates.

Tuesday, February 28, 2012 (228)

February 28, the date of 228 Massacre, represents the forever trauma in Taiwanese' hearts. I am not supposed to be cheerful on February 28 because I feel bad for the victims' families. Honestly, I have a whim to accuse the injustice. Why are we worrying about the 228 Massacre, instead of extricating the Syrians? If we seriously want to walk out of the shadows, we should prevent the tragedy to happen in the world. However, I don't have the "authority" to defend for the Syrians. I love Taiwanese more because Taiwan is my homeland, the most beautiful country which bore me. What happened in 228? Basically, Taiwanese were slaughtered by the ROC administration. I'll never forget the temporary leader, Chen Yi, who commanded to slay innocent Taiwanese. There wasn't peaceful, nonviolent protests because all the protesters were DEAD. 228 became a Peace Memorial Day in Taiwan. Last year, we visited the 228 Peace Memorial Museum and further understood our homeland's history. I pray for all the victims' families and sincerely hope that the massacre will never occur in Taiwan, and the world.

Monday, February 27, 2012 (Realization)

"Life will find its own way" is my motto. And it turns out to be the truth. Though I was disappointed by my meaningless future goals and life, I regain my interest by reading the inspirational manga, Shugo Chara. Shugo Chara is a Japanese manga which inspired children with one's true self. I deeply believe that everyone has own guardian angels which represent the possibilities of oneself. The guardian angels will guide us to the right way and give us hopes whenever we encounter difficulties. I believe that I have guardian angels in my heart which will lead me toward a bright future. The guardian angels will always protect me because they are invisible in my heart. They will give me courage to face the unknown challenges. I also have faith in "Character Change" and believe that I will discover my true self in the future. I love Shugo Chara so much because it inspires me to pursue my own dreams. The manga remembered me my beautiful memory in local school. I have to first emphasize that I am not a supporter nor an antagonist of Twilight. I just feel thankful to Twilight. Thanks to Twilight, which was my beloved, inspirational novel, encouraged me to regain interest in studying when I was in local school. I COULDN'T explain why, but it just provided me the motivation to keep studying. It gave me an incredible power to get good grades unbelievably. Twilight was the first novel which I fell in love with since it was extremely romantic, which made me hyper. I realized that I was a perfect idealistic romanticism. I remembered how did I maintain top 3 in school while reading Twilight right before the finals. My classmates couldn't believe how Twilight changed and reformed both my character and grades. Furthermore, I discovered that I loved reading because I appreciated the romance in every single book. Love stories are ALWAYS THE BEST. In Shugo Chara, there is a extremely sweet love story which I strongly recommend to my friend, Jenny. I believe that she will fall in love with the main character, Ikuto, because he is a typical bad boy. OMG!!! I can't control my mood right now!!!! He is my perfect right guy. However, he isn't the major reason that I love Shugo Chara. I appreciate the main character, Amu, since she is courageous and kindhearted, though she is introvert. I love her because she believes in the guardian angels and is willing to discover her true self. I guess that I need my guardian angels to guide me right now. After reading the full manga, I eventually regain my self-confidence and believe myself that I will find my true self in the future. The guardian angels in my heart represent my radiance and will glitter as stars in the darkness.
This is my best journal EVER (:

Sunday, February 26, 2012 (Confess)

I have never had such a strong desire to write my journal for awhile. I am so excited to share my opinions and am willing to confess the truth. 
Honestly, I have lost my interest in studying and had no goals to achieve. Though I got good grades, I wasn't satisfied since my heart was void. Why did I care about my grades? I lost myself in a labyrinth called life. Life was too simple while it has no meaning to me. I couldn't understand why I didn't have motivation to study. I fell asleep when I was studying and couldn't concentrate and focus on my work. Since when, I became a robot who had no desire to study? I felt sad and sorry for myself but I couldn't find a way to regain my interest. I have experienced a tough life in local school because I had tests every single day. TESTS. TESTS. TESTS. That's all I had to prepare every day. My mood was capricious because I had too much to worry. However, something changed my life in local school and brought me a beam of bright light--novels. I used to study in library by myself every Sunday. Library was meaningful to me because I had a strong connection with it. Studying by myself in a library was effective. However, there was a heaven in library. When I rested and literally tricked my parents in order to read the novels for 1.5 hours, my heart pumped hard and fast but I was extremely excited to read novels. Reading novels was my best enjoyment ever. After I read few chapters of novels, I would work harder to finish the practice books since I felt guilty. Unfortunately, life in PAS was so simple and easy that I had a bunch of free time. When my local-school classmates were working hard every day, I was wasting my time and dilly-dallying. I didn't have to work hard to get straight As but I felt an unexplained void. Getting good grades became easy while I gradually adapted in the new environment. In the meanwhile, I lost my interest and future goals because life was too easy. What should I do? 

Thursday, February 23, 2012 (Cookies)

As the title has indicated, we cooking class members made tasty, delicious cookies in cooking club. I love chocolate chip cookies, peanut butter cookies, and raspberry-oreo cookies. I am impressed by Ms. Wallace's recipe in which she taught us to make raisin cookies. The raisin cookies are healthy, simple, and most important, they melt in mouth swiftly. I love my cooking group pretty much because we cooperate well. Though I'm the youngest and don't seem to fit in the high school society, the upper schoolmates treat me friendly. They are polite, cheerful and they care about me. I am glad that I can have a chance to acquaint with those kindhearted schoolmates. Although I can't join their conversation, I listen and smile and respect my upper schoolmates. I learn to make friends by good behaviors and a common language all over the world-- smile. Moreover, I learn the real meaning of "Fake it until you make it".

Wednesday, February 22, 2012 (Major)

Major is my favorite sports manga series since I acquainted with baseball. Though I am not good at baseball, I have a passion to cheer for my team. I love the main character, Goro, who is a successful pitcher, since he is absolutely a passionate, enthusiastic baseball fanatic. His passion usually encourages the morale and changes the ball game around. Though he broke his right arm, he disciplined his left arm and regained his position as a pitcher. Though he got yips, which prevented from pitching, he recovered and trained hardly in order to become a number-4 hitter. I appreciate his courage, talents, and passion since he NEVER gave up playing baseball though he was at the verge of death. I admire him so much that I hope I could become a baseball player afterlife. Haha. How come a girl who strike all the time is able to become a baseball player? Anyways, the manga seriously inspires me to reach my dream no matter how hard, faraway it is, hope will give me the wings to fly.

The Seven Ages of Man Quickwrite

I think that the seven ages of a person's life are infant, teenager, ambitions (dreams), adulthood, love, elderhood, realization, and childhood. I am an abnormal person, and thus my explanations are based on my thoughts and creativity. As the infant comes along the world crying, it begins its journey to discover the world. The infant is naive, innocent, but it will gain knowledge throughout the time. The infant then becomes a teenager, who is somehow rebellious and has his/her own opinions. The teenager faces the stage of growing up, so he/she needs to traverse the winding paths and overcome the difficulties along with family, friends, and teachers. While the teenagers are growing up, most of them start to think about the future and dreams. We all embrace beautiful dreams, though they are faraway, but it's possible to achieve the goals. We start to develop ambitions in order to fulfill self-esteem and try to make our dreams come true. The next stage is adulthood. People become mature, independent, self-sufficient, and most important, become responsible for their behavior. We learn to be responsible because we are no longer kids. Kids can make mistakes because they are still young, childish; however, adults are the models of kids. Adults have to become mature. (Sigh~) I don't want to become an adult! People might have true love and decide to have a long-term love relationship-- marriage in adulthood. When we are young, we might meet people who impress, amaze us, but they are just splendid passengers who decorate, enrich our lives. We will eventually find the true love who is born to belong to each other. I believe that true love will accompany us till elderhood. People become old in elderhood and they start to remember what happens in their wonderful, mediocre, or miserable life. They start to have slower pace of life since they have encountered all the difficulties through the wind and rain. Eventually, elder people might achieve self-realization, in which they understand nihility. Everything is nothing; nothing is everything. I believe in Buddhism and I hope to reach nihility in the future. Why do I believe that the last stage is childhood? Because I believe that elder people will rejuvenate. Elder people start to drop rice, can't hold the spoon firmly, which act like babies, because they are learning to become angels but can't adapt in the form of angels. At the last moment of living, people will suddenly remember all the beauty of life, become lucid, clear, and join the choir invisible along with a feeling of incredible freedom.