Monday, April 16, 2012 (Attitude)

I don't appreciate people's "whatsoever" attitude. I honestly dislike people who merely care about their academic works without any talents. I clearly understand that academic works are important since all the people hope to admit in top colleges. However, I don't appreciate the slipshod attitude toward extracurricular activities. If people join the activity, they should make the greatest effort and try their best. The activity isn't casual nor random. People should demonstrate a positive attitude toward these activities. I have met so many great people who are good at math, science, and all those academic works. I'm indeed proud of my awesome, gifted class. Students in our class are not only good at academic works, but also music, such as violin, piano, and flute; sports, such as track and field, baseball, swimming, and basketball. They are ALL-ROUND. They aren't stupid NERDS. The world doesn't need nerds, because they don't have creativity. The world needs people who are all-round, enthusiastic toward their interests. The world doesn't need people who merely care about their academic works, but without interests to live their lives fully.

Sunday, April 15, 2012 (Italy)

A dream is so reminiscent of people's future. However, I had a dream which reminded me my childhood. I traveled in Italy with my family in the dream. We were shopping in the mall and saw people selling clothes. When we approached to the counter, I met my pre-best friend, Amy, along with another friend, Venus. I was extremely surprised since I haven't met them for years. However, I was quite sad because they didn't invite me. I was so excited that I couldn't help but keep chattering. Still, there was an awkward silence. They shared their lives enthusiastically with me. We remembered the elementary-school life and wondered how was the teacher doing. When we were best friends, Amy told me that her dream was to become the best dancer. She admitted into a dance school. She was my best friend until an incident. However, we were grown-ups and no longer bothered about the past. Venus was beautiful as usual. She was clever, active, and adroit. When my parents yelled and woke me up, I realized that Italy was a mirage and my dear friends were still far from me. I felt disconsolate and was hard to believe in the truth. All the memories of childhood started to pour in my heart.

Thursday, April 12, 2012 (Why Love?)

Love is represented by a heart shape. However, the heart shape is easily broken and damaged by rumors. Why do people take out their hearts and tortured them just because they fall in love? If we already know that the ending is a tragedy, why do we still deeply trust love incorrigibly? If we can predict future, will we stay with the one who is doomed to failure, pain, and poverty? Can love overcome all the impossibles and rescue a soul? I have too many questions, but without any solutions. I wonder, how do people fall in love? How can they bear the pain when their lover betrays? If they already know the outcome, why do they still follow their destiny? Can they change the destiny? Is love the only answer when people risk their lives and are willing to sacrifice for the other? What's the boundary between selflessness and love? People expect love, but they don't want to be hurt. If love bears hatred, is hatred born by love? I can't understand how can people sacrifice for each other due to love. I don't trust love, and I might not trust love until I seriously experience it. Love is deep and beautiful, but my heart aches when love betrays.

Wednesday, April 11, 2012 (What's Love?)

Love is complicated, beautiful, and fragile. I believe in true love, but I don't believe there's true love in the world. I am impressed by the true love in Palace since the lovers can overcome the difficulties anytime. They love each other deeply. I wonder how can a person find its true love, the one who is willing to sacrifice for another. Love is like rainbow, always appears after torrential rain. But how can we find our own color in the colorful rainbow? Love is mysterious since people can easily hurt by love, but they can easily sacrifice for love. How can love turn people to become selfless? How can love change people's personality? Why is love so beautiful but so miserable? Why do people expect true love? If people don't have love, what will they become? A demon? A devil? How is it possible to leave your true love away even though you truly love him/ her? I contemplate about love during spring break, but I still can't find my own answers. If love is dangerous, I hope that I won't fall in love so I won't hurt my heart.  

Tuesday, April 10, 2012 (Confusion)

What can people do if they can't control their behaviors? Though they know that their behaviors are mistaken, they can't control their inclination due to fondness. What should I do? I know that it's wrong, but I can't "suppress" my desire. I can't rebel against the desire, which might lead me toward destruction. The school starts and I have to go back to normal. I can't keep doing whatsoever I want. However, I'm confused. I don't have the will power and courage to resist my desire. I can't face my desire bravely. I can't control myself. Lingering between moral and desire, I can't select the right one. The wrong one is so attractive that I become confused. I don't know what's my decision. I can't resist against my desire. I ain't strong enough to support myself. I break all the promises but I can't do the right choice. When can I go back to normal? Please. Please. Please. I cry with the characters, the plot, the drama. I can't betray them and leave them along. However, dramas are still dramas. I have to understand the truth clearly. I need to wake myself up in the eternal magic of dramas, the power that makes me cry, wail, regret, and laugh heartily. ANGELA!WAKE UP!

Monday, April 9, 2012 (Palace)

Palace is an awesome costume drama about how a modern girl involves in a series of plots, battles, and survives in Qing dynasty. Though my friends are fond of watching dramas, they aren't interested in costume dramas so I can't discuss excitedly with them. Thus, I express my feelings on blogger. A modern girl accidentally shuttled back to Qing dynasty. She discovered that she became a maid in the imperial palace. Unfortunately, she is bullied by the emperor's 8th son and his brothers since she dared to oppose against them in order to save her sworn sisters. 8th brother was impressed by her courage. 4th brother treated the maid well while she encountered difficulties and taught her to play the zither. Thus, she gradually fell in love with him. However, 8th brother declared that the maid was his girl because he has never met a girl whom he thought interesting and remembered fondly everyday. The maid refused the marriage with 8th brother publicly even though the emperor granted the marriage. She thought that 4th brother was her true love. However, she then discovered that 4th brother was eager to assassin her since she might become a threat. She was desperate and decided to change and rewrite history--stopped 4th brother from becoming emperor Yongzheng. Palace haunted me since the plot is attractive and the characters are active. I learn that the battles in harem are mysterious, cunning, and complicated. A mistake might cost people's lives easily. There aren't any heavenly principles because the emperor is God.

Sunday, April 8, 2012 (ANGER)

I never ever have such strong desire to slam the door and punch a person's face. But, who is it? I never realize that kings, emperors are such sly, crafty, cunning, and despicable. I am so emotional that I want to murder the Chinese emperor. What the hxxx is it? Ewww..... How come a father can snatch his son's girlfriend through power and holy status? How come a son of heaven can go against ethics? I almost want to shuttle back to that stupid palace and save the poor girl. But I have to emphasize that I am just watching a drama. The most ridiculous is that his son and the girl are in love! Why does the father break the couples? I love the couples so much and hope that they have a bright future, though I already know the ending, the tragedy. But THEY ARE IN LOVE! Damn emperor. Please give the poor couples a chance to stay together forever. They are worth for it. They are willing to sacrifice for the other though they suffer in the battles in harem. I learn that I can never trust a single person inside the palace since all of them are trying to poison enemies. People are atrocious and lose their moral standards. Thanks that I live in modern times.